re: *OFFICIAL* Fertility Treatment Thread (Clomid, IVF, IUI)

This is hard for me to admit, but I'm a terrible social/closet smoker   I'm so ashamed! No one except DH and close friends know I smoke.

But I'm happy to say that I'm 2 days smoke free lol I know it's nothing but I'm proud of myself. I figured it will be better and easier to stop now.


During the day I'm fine, I never smoked during the day or while at work. It's a night thing or when friends are over. But I feel good about this and that I can really quit.

Don't judge! It was a terrible habit I picked up when I was younger, I quit for a year and picked it back up due to being so depressed from TTC- not an excuse I know.

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" This is hard for me to admit, but I'm a terrible social/closet smoker   I'm so ashamed! No one except ... [snip!] ... picked up when I was younger, I quit for a year and picked it back up due to being so depressed from TTC- not an excuse I know."

Just from looking at your avi picture, you don't strike me as a smoker. I'm not judging! It sounds like smoking is a coping mechanism for stress from TTC. Especially if you say you do it at night, anxiety tends to run higher at night.

I'm proud of you for being smoke free! It's extremely hard to quit. I started smoking around 15, I quit a couple months before we started fertility treatments in 09'.

I hope you can quit for good! When my mom had her stroke last month they did a CT scan and found spots on her lungs, they said it could be lung cancer. She's doing another CT in December, if the spots grew or there's any changes they're doing a biopsy. Despite all that she just started smoking again..  roll:

I hope it doesn't sound like I'm lecturing you with the story about my mom but lately I've been warning everybody.

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" Lovely.. Since my messed up cycle in ... [snip!] ... since my acne is caused by a hormone imbalance. "</blockquote> I break out right around AF. Right around my chin too"

That's what usually happens with me. I started to break out when AF was suppose to be due in August.. Since August I keep breaking out. I hate this!!

<blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" Just from looking at your avi picture, you don't strike me as a smoker. I'm not judging! It sounds like ... [snip!] ...  roll: I hope it doesn't sound like I'm lecturing you with the story about my mom but lately I've been warning everybody."</blockquote>




No worries!   your not lecturing, your opening up my mind and I need that. I should be smarter than this- my Grammy passed away from lung cancer last year and my nana just beat lung cancer at 84! I need to start making smart decisions for myself and my future children.

Thank you!

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" Just from looking at your avi picture, ... [snip!] ... and my nana just beat lung cancer at 84! I need to start making smart decisions for myself and my future children. Thank you!"

Lung cancer seems like a horrible way to die. I'm sorry for your loss.

I'm upset that my mom is smoking again, the doctors told her to quit.

3 years ago today I found out I was pregnant with Dahlia  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" Lung cancer seems like a horrible way to die. I'm sorry for your loss. I'm upset that my mom is smoking again, the doctors told her to quit."</blockquote>




It really is horrible. I watched my grandmother take her last breath- it was the saddest thing I ever had to watch. She went into the hospital because she was sick and the doctors told us there was nothing they could do, her body wouldn't be able to stand the treatments. She went back to her nursing home, my mom told my grandmother that it was okay if she wanted to go and see her husband and baby boy (she lost a pregnancy at 6 months). Literally right after that, she passed. So sad!

Sorry! Didn't mean to make a sad story. But if I think about that, maybe it will help me to stay smoke free. DH says he wants to quit, too. I said what about when I become pregnant and he said yes of course  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" 3 years ago today I found out I was pregnant with Dahlia  "</blockquote>




Awwww!   she's so cute! I love the pictures you post of her!

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" Lung cancer seems like a horrible way ... [snip!] ... me to stay smoke free. DH says he wants to quit, too. I said what about when I become pregnant and he said yes of course  "

Oh wow, that is really sad  
I was in the hospital room in February when my grandpa died, right before he died he raised his arms up then he was gone. He didn't move at all in the hospital, but right before he passed on, his arms went up.

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" 3 years ago today I found out I was pregnant ... [snip!] ... I found out I was pregnant with Dahlia  "</blockquote> Awwww!   she's so cute! I love the pictures you post of her!"

I was planning on taking some pictures of Dahlia today and posting a thread with my BFPs, ultrasounds a few baby pictures and pictures of her now. I wanted to make a special thread since I got my BFP with her 3 years ago today. I'll never forget finding out and my reaction. LOL

<blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" I was planning on taking some pictures of Dahlia today and posting a thread with my BFPs, ultrasounds ... [snip!] ... to make a special thread since I got my BFP with her 3 years ago today. I'll never forget finding out and my reaction. LOL"</blockquote>




Do that! I wanna see  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" Oh wow, that is really sad   I was in the hospital room in February when my grandpa died, right before ... [snip!] ... raised his arms up then he was gone. He didn't move at all in the hospital, but right before he passed on, his arms went up. "</blockquote>




  so sad.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I asked DH a while back if we could go out to breakfast in the morning since I don't work til noon and he said sure.

Now he tells me he took the day off, and his boss to go to the drag strip for the day. Is it terrible of me that I'm upset?   he said he will be home and we could go out to dinner but I'm still upset, I guess I'm selfish.

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" Tomorrow is my birthday and I asked DH a while back if we could go out to breakfast in the morning since ... [snip!] ... of me that I'm upset?   he said he will be home and we could go out to dinner but I'm still upset, I guess I'm selfish."

Personally I don't think you sound selfish.. I'd be upset too, especially since it was planned a head of time.. I'd be extremely bummed out!

Happy early birthday!

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Vicarious★:</b>" I was planning on taking some pictures ... [snip!] ... with her 3 years ago today. I'll never forget finding out and my reaction. LOL"</blockquote> Do that! I wanna see  "

I didn't take the pictures today but I will tomorrow. Miss Dahlia was cranky today and we're issues with potty training.