Quoting nurselindsey:" Ugh Ashleigh, you are so right. I do want this and it will be worth it. I'm such an emotional mess. I ... [snip!] ... proud of him. One day I hope that he's with us 100% of the time. It would complete our family with a few other little ones "
I know what you mean, the little boy I nanny for goes to daycare 2 days a week for socializing, and everytime I pick him up the little girl will yell "Ari's mommy is here!!!!" or some little kid will ask "Are you a mommy?!" ... can't really yell or start crying at a 2 year old lol.
It will all be worth it in the end. It sucks that we have to be the ones to struggle when we might just be the most deserving. I'm not much of a religious person, but I always believe and have my faith. Faith doesn't make things easy, it makes them possible.. it IS possible, just keep holding on!