Don't know what to do

I'm scared,pissed, annoyed.
Long story short..
I had an abortion last year.Since then, we have been using protection.
I was expecting my period on the 3rd.Took a test on the 4th..BFN..yet still NO AF.I'm getting tested again on Tuesday.I don't know what's going on but if I am pregnant, I can't do it.I have a 3 yr old who is hearing impaired(it was passed down because I am hearing impaired as well...)she has a moderate loss, which isn't bad bc she could have gotten a profound loss(like me).I also take her to speech 4 times a week.(I also have a 6 yr old.)Oh, well my mom does.She takes us and I pay for her gas....My husband and I have one car, and can't afford another one.My mom is about to get rid of her car too.So then I am screwed.There's no way at this point I can have another baby.I don't know why God is doing this to me, ESPECIALLY after we were careful after the last incident......My husband says"we can do it, and we will figure something out"if I AM PREGNANT. "Figure it out?"no, we shouldn't have to do any figuring out.He doesn't understand the trouble we would have if we brought a another baby in this world.I'm praying the first test I took was accurate...and maybe AF is just being weird or something....

end vent.

If your HPTs are negative after your period is due then you are probably not pregnant. Most women get a very clear positive by the time their period is due. Not all, but most. Good luck with everything!

Can you get implanon or something very reliable for b/c? I couldn't put myself through that every month.

go get on the implanon.... it works amazing.

I hope you're not pregnant! No woman should have to make that decision twice... I'd maybe suggest a more permaneant form of BC.. if you're definitely finished having children, maybe your spouse can get a vasectomy? Or you could get intrauterine BC like mirena. Just a thought, so you don't have to worry about something like this again. GL