Quoting KayteB:" I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling so bad Is it possible to seek some professional psychiatric help? ... [snip!] ... done, and were pressured into it... you didn't really choose. Sorry I don't have much advice; I do hope you find some relief."I am way to ashamed to every speak of it. I told my husband while covering my face with a pillow a year back. He cried too. But to him it wasn't a baby. To me it was.
Quoting TashaMorgan:" Why not plant something in remembrance? A rose bush or tree or something.You should probably speak to someone to help you deal with how you are feeling."I think that is a good idea. I got a puppy to help, but it hasn't. We are in the military and move quite often. Maybe I can create something. I just wouldn't want anyone to ever ask the significance.