To make a choice

Back when I was 17, which I am now 21, I was in an awful relationship. I was with him for two and a half years. Well at 17 I got pregnant, I was about 6 weeks when I found out. I didn't know what to do. I cried for days, and days. The father did not care at all. He was mad when I told him I was pregnant. For about a week I did not tell my mother. Then she stared to notice I was throwing up all the time. ( I had awful morning sickness, like 12 times a day) I finally broke down and told her. She did not freak out like I thought she would which made me happy. She said she would support me through this. Well, about two days later she asked me what I wanted to do. Get an abortion, adoption, or keep it? I told her I would think about it. At first I didn't know what I wanted. I so desperately want to have a child, I feel my calling is to be a mother. But I was only 17 in an abusive relationship. I did not want my child to go through a life with a father like that. Also, I didn't want to go through the pain of adoption. So I decided to get an abortion. It was the hardest choice I have ever had to make. I cried for days and days. And after I got it I fell into a deep deep depression. I missed having those little butterflies in my belly. I loved feeling the cramping when it was attaching. I missed being pregnant. I loved the feeling of knowing something inside me was growing. I feel awful after all these years. When I see my friends with their babies I feel so sad. And guilty. I should have never gotten that abortion. I feel like I have murdered my child. I now want to get pregnant so so bad. And my boyfriend and I are trying.

Good luck, hope all works out this time

Good luck ttc!!

Thank you  

Abortion rarely has an affect on the uterus and ability to get pregnant unless it is very late term or you have had several. So if it takes a while to get pregnant, don't think it's your fault and don't blame yourself <3

The best thing you can do is take care of yourself, take your supplements, eat right and stay active to make your body the best home for 9 months.

Quoting Squid Kid:" Abortion rarely has an affect on the uterus and ability to get pregnant unless it is very late term or ... [snip!] ... do is take care of yourself, take your supplements, eat right and stay active to make your body the best home for 9 months. "

Aw thank you so very much   you're a sweetheart!