you will always feel sad when thinking about it, i got an abortion about 4 years ago and sometimes i wonder what it would have looked like and wether it was a boy or girl, but you just have to remember it was the right choice for you and the fetus. its a scary and brave thing to do. if you ever need to talk im here and have delt with the sadness and everything else. take care, and hope you are feeling a little better about your choice. it will get better tho i promise.