Quoting Zbornak:" What you're feeling isn't wrong at all! That would be an extremely difficult decision to make. Are you ... [snip!] ... to have an abortion because of finances. I can really understand where you're coming from, and I think I'd feel the same way. "
I feel so ashamed. I never wanted it to be like this..I wanted our second baby to be something that brought joy since we had our son so young...I'm only 22 for god sake..
everytime I tell him I have doubts or that I really want to keep the baby he just looks for frustrated, I know he's trying hard to be the logical one, I've caught him crying a few times in the last couple of days, this is not something either of us want...I just feel like I need to defend this baby..my baby..this is my baby and I'm ashamed of admitting it to the point where I have to go on a secret account to feel comfortable enough to talk about...the small part of me that wants to have this abortion is seriously fading..
I woke up this morning thinking "I'm going to keep it whether he wants it or not" I was happy at the idea...but reality sets in and I realize, I'll have absolutely no support from anyone...no one will think this is a good idea and I'll be fighting all the time with everyone(friends, family, possibly DH) because no one will think its a good idea...I can't even go to my own mother because I feel like a foolish teenager who has just found out she was pregnant..I know she'll put me down for it..