heavy heart

I had my abortion yesterday. I was 13 weeks 5 days, with twins. I can't help but to feel like I made a mistake that I can never take back. I know I did it for the right reasons (mostly), but I just wish I could go back in time and make things better so that I could have had them....

I'm so sorry. I wish you the best.

I'm sorry you had to make that decision and I hope you can come to peace with it.

I am sorry mama  

I hope that one day whenever that may be that you find some peace.

Please be kind to yourself- remember that youre going through a HUGE post partum hormone change right now, and try to not get too sucked into those feelings.

I didn't even want to go through with it before I walked into the clinic. I told him that, and all he said was "I'm sorry." I just wish guys didn't have to be so smurfing heartless.

I'm really sorry. That is a really tough decision you had to make. But you did the best you could at this time. Try not to beat yourself up thinking what you could have done different. If you need help getting through your grief, possibly consider some counseling. And it's okay to be sad right now! Let yourself cry if you need to. Just be kind to yourself. You made the right decision.

Quoting Camp Kill Yourself:" I'm really sorry. That is a really tough decision you had to make. But you did the best you could at ... [snip!] ... And it's okay to be sad right now! Let yourself cry if you need to. Just be kind to yourself. You made the right decision."

thank you.

Quoting ♥ my little ladybug:" I didn't even want to go through with it before I walked into the clinic. I told him that, and all he said was "I'm sorry." I just wish guys didn't have to be so smurfing heartless."

Maybe he doesn't know how to show his true emotions about it. Guys are really bad at that. I'm sorry he isn't being very supportive.

Quoting ♥ my little ladybug:" I didn't even want to go through with it before I walked into the clinic. I told him that, and all he said was "I'm sorry." I just wish guys didn't have to be so smurfing heartless."

He has no ability to understand how it felt/feels for you. He simply cant, it wasnt his body.

I would talk to someone, if I were you... and keep talking to him about how you feel. Otherwise, you will hate him.

I'm going to try to talk to someone. I'm just trying to wait until my insurance through work kicks in. I've only been there a little over a month so don't have any yet.

And as far as talking to him... he doesn't get it and/or just doesn't care. I tried today and he told me to "stop giving him the guilt trip and making him feel worse about."

 

I hate life sometimes. And I have to try to hold it together and be strong for my 2 year old daughter throughout all of this when all I want to do is break down and give up.

Quoting ♥ my little ladybug:" I'm going to try to talk to someone. I'm just trying to wait until my insurance through work kicks in. ... [snip!] ... it together and be strong for my 2 year old daughter throughout all of this when all I want to do is break down and give up."

Aww you poor thing. I really feel for you. Just know it will get better eventually. It will!! It just takes time.

thanks so much sweetie. I need to hear that right now. I never thought I would be in this position.

Quoting ♥ my little ladybug:" I'm going to try to talk to someone. I'm just trying to wait until my insurance through work kicks in. ... [snip!] ... it together and be strong for my 2 year old daughter throughout all of this when all I want to do is break down and give up."

Im SO sorry. Thats a really lonely place for him to leave you with all of this..... and its totally not fair. He should sit and listen for as many days/weeks/months/years it takes you to not want to talk about it any more.

Hold her tight!!! You did it for her best interests.

He packed his stuff and left 2 weeks ago. That's the hardest part of all of this. We were both so excited, he wanted to be a family and was "so" excited to be a dad, and then BAM... it's too much to even process.