re: RIP My babys father.

I don't know what I'd do if I lost my fiance. And I'm so sorry for your loss, no one should have to go through or even deal with it. But look at it this way, he'll still be there when your beautiful baby girl is born and he will be watching over you both, always.

"I keep everything inside and try not to talk about it with other people for the babys health."

That is NOT healthy for your baby!!!! You have to grieve properly to be the healthiest mom you can be and your baby will not thrive if you aren't emotionally healthy. I am so sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine, but you have to deal with this if not for you than "for the babys health."

hun I hope your ok. It will be ok trust me. you can always talk to me or anyone on this site.  

Hi, this is the same Sunshine Kilgore who posted this post 4 years ago. I just wanted to update you all. I forgot that I had posted this and should have updated a while ago but with my daughter and now my son I have had a lot going on. Anyways, my daughter is now 4 years old and is in preschool. She is extremely smart and beautiful. She is the best big sister and daughter anyone can ever ask for. I on the other hand am still emotionally messed up from her fathers death. It hard for me to hold relationships, its hard for me to pass his birthdays, our anniversary and his death anniversary with out crying for weeks or becoming so emotional I can't think. I blam his death on myself. Its just extremely hard but I hide it well for my kids. I push forward knowing that emotionally im about to break anyday. I now have my bacholers in Social Work and have a great job that I love but I just can't get over him. Thats about all  Oh still do not have a relationship about his family. They blam me for his accident.

am so sorry for your loss! How can they possibly blame the accident on you???