A little scared;
posted 1st Apr '12
I will try to make this short as possible, I promise lol
I'm pregnant w/ my 3rd about, 5wks away till I give birth again. I've been very nervous, scared, worried, paranoid, etc, that I will go into premature labor again.
My 2nd was born premature, 5 1/2 wks to be exact, due to problems w/ my placenta. My placenta abrupted, I was bleeding all over, everything was coming out of body blah blah. It was just really scary. I ended up getting another emergency c-section when I was rushed to the hospital via ambulance. He was born 5lbs 4oz, & had NTT, Jaundice, heart problems, & was failing to breathe on his own. Luckily, he was only in the hospital for a week or so, before we could take him home. It was hard for the first 2mths, I was so scared the slightest thing would kill him. I panicked over every little thing. I was a wreck.
Now, I am high risk again w/ this pregnancy, my doctor has me coming in every week ever since I was like, 6-7mths pregnant, to monitor me bcos she doesn't want anything happening again. So far, I've had some fake contractions, a few real ones. I've been hospitalized once, bcos she kicked the crap out of my bladder so hard, I ended up w/ a fever & all this other stuff ugh.
I am just really scared that it might happen again tho. Every time I pee, make love, sit in a certain position, pretty much anything I do, I have this overwhelming fear of just popping. I even had a really bad dream I gave birth in my kitchen prematurely. I just...I'm scared. I really don't want to go thru this again, I really don't want this baby having to suffer...ugh I'm just so scared.
I guess I just want to know any other moms who have had premature babies, if they went on to have a successful pregnancy w/ their 2nd, 3rd etc. Just some reassurance. I'll feel a lot better the closer May gets here.