Im Not In A Great Place Right Now

I usually am so on top of things when they happen but this pregnancy has thrown me in for a whirlwind. I am already a full time college student, and I work full time. On top of that, my ex is the father of this unborn child and this was not suppose to happen!

I know that my only option is to have an abortion and i chose to do it by the pill method, but i am still extremely scared. Whats going to happen to me? to my body? to my spirit? Im such a compassionate person and it kills me to think of what i am doing but i am no where close to being ready for a child. Not even to give birth to a child! I am 7 weeks and my appointment is on friday which is exactly 1 week away. But I feel so bad. I dont know if its the hormones that are making me cry or the situation itself! But ive never cried this much in my life.

To add insult to injury, his mother wanted us to keep it! I love him so much but we broke up for a reason! and a baby will only make it worse! So now i feel judged like im some kind of baby killer and a bad person and i know im not! im just not! I want this to be over with but its 7 days away and i feel like this is going to be the longest week of my life.

Im sorry you guys, i just needed to vent because for the first time in my life i am just extremely and unbelievably overwhelmed with stress and emotions.

You are stronger than you think. You will be fine and you have people here you can talk to when you need us. Good luck and hugs.

Quoting My Lil' Monster:" You are stronger than you think. You will be fine and you have people here you can talk to when you need us. Good luck and hugs."

Thank You i truly do appreciate it.

hormons, and they can mess with your emotions for 6 weeks after to, I had a miscarrage and I felt like this for 6 weeks it was horrable, all I wantted to do was cry and if something did not go perfectly I would start crying. you are doing what you need to and you just keep telling yourself that hormons are the thing that is makeing you feel like this, this does not mean you are a bad person, and don't let anyone tell you differently, you are who you are and this does not change that

Quoting Ari24:" I usually am so on top of things when they happen but this pregnancy has thrown me in for a whirlwind. ... [snip!] ... needed to vent because for the first time in my life i am just extremely and unbelievably overwhelmed with stress and emotions."

Girl, I really hope you make the right decision for YOU! not trying to preach but God has a plan! You have to do whats best for you! If you work hard, and have high goals..then my opinion is your beautiful baby will only be encouragement!!

If you decide an abortion is right for you, you are not a baby killer. You are just someone who doesn't let life happen to you. You refuse to just go with the flow if you know it will bring a bad outcome. There is nothing wrong with that. You will be very emotional after you did it, and you will probably always regret it. But it's better to regret and abortion than to regret having a child.