regret having an abortion

i dont usually do this, posting about my life or what ive been through on the internet etc but ive come to a point where i just need to let it all out and i shouldnt be judged for that.
im 18years old and live in london (uk) i fell pregnant in december 2011 with my boyfriend who ive been with for 2years. i left home and the pregnancy wasnt an accident. i had issues with my family and eventually came back home, when i'd found out i was pregnant i was living with them. i told my boyfriend straight away and we was so happy, until i came round to telling my family. it was chaos and eventually they manipulated me into having an abortion. i know i could have stopped it and its my fault etc but they way i was told that its not the right time and etc i ended up doing it for them. i did it for my family. its been a month since i had the abortion and its making me so weak. i dont have anything which can relate to the baby eg scan pics and all. ive been thinking about it everyday and i just dont know what to do anymore, im still with my boyfriend but things are getting tough for us aswel, i know ill get people chatting smurf bout oh its your fault blah blah blah but like i said im not here to be judged but to express my feelings. also if there is anyone out there reading this who is thinking about having an abortion please think wisely and dont make the mistake i did because you will regret it, and there will be no way of turning back time.

I'm so sorry you're feeling that way.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling like that  

Would you consider getting into some counseling? It may help you cope.

Im sorry that you are feeling this way....  

I'm usually for empowering women for making such a drastic, emotional choice that I'm sure is usually well thought over but I truly am sorry, your family was right you're young but it was never their place to make that big of a decision for you...hopefully one day you can come to peace with the choice and learn to grow from it...best of luck to your emotional recovery..

Quoting millie thai:" i dont usually do this, posting about my life or what ive been through on the internet etc but ive come ... [snip!] ... please think wisely and dont make the mistake i did because you will regret it, and there will be no way of turning back time."

it wasn't really your desision i am sorry you were pushed into haveing one, I'm pro-choice but the choice of the mother not the family I think it's wrong to push people into having anything they don't want, just remember even tho the upsetness might not completely go away the first 6 weeks have hormons to combine with that feeling,

I'm so sorry you had to go through this. Maybe seeking some kind of grief counseling would help greatly. I know around here the clinics offer some kind of counseling for post abortions.

And in AS, there's no judgement allowed. This is a safe place for support.

I am sorry that you are having trouble with what happened to you.
You were forced into a situation that wasn't right for you, I hope you find the strength to heal.

The end of your post however indicates that all people will regret their decsion to have an abortion. That is not the case.

I know how you feel and its a terriable terriable feeling my family pushed me in to it kept tell your to young you won't be able to cope things like that I know I was 15 but that's beside the point I regretted listening to them as soon as I'd had it done. But its made me sure that I could cope and that I do wanna be a mum and that I'm ready for my baby when he arrives in june its been almost 4yrs now and I can honistly say that it made me grow up and be the person I am today. That feeling does get better but it takes some time good luck here if you need to chat about it