I feel worse th I've ever felt.

My name is Kelseylynn. I'm 16 years old & had an abortion yesterday on March 15th. & I can't stand myself now. I let my mom push me into it when I've always said I would never do such a thing. My closest friends pushed me away& I can't even get intouch with the father. I was just getting over the sadness & depression from my miscarriage on Nov 3, 2011. I feel as if now I'll never be able to have a baby cause I let my mom talk me into terminating this one. I keep waking up crying & having nightmares of the ultrasound. I even stare at the pictures of the ultrasound on my phone. I've never felt so low and almost numb. Like I'm so numb to the point that anything bad that people can say about me
I wouldn't care cause I already hurt myself. I needed to get that off my chest.

I'm so sorry. If you need anyone to talk to I would be happy to talk to you anytime sweetie.
Feel better <3

She can't force you to have one.. You could have refused, but anyway, i'm sorry for your loss.

I'm sorry your going through this. I've had very similar things happen, just a little older. I know how hard it can be to do something you don't really want to. If you would like you can PM me. I also have had a miscarriage and didn't think I would be able to have kids, but I was able to get pregnant and have a baby. Doesn't mean you won't ever be able to.

I'm so sorry that you are having a hard time with this 
No one should ever be forced into doing something that they don't want to.

Maybe you should try to get into counseling to help you cope with your emotions.

Best of luck to you hun.

*hugs*

Im sorry that you're in so much pain, in time it will pass. m
Maybe you should seek some kind of grievance counseling, it could help a lot.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Tyson's Mama ♥:</b>" She can't force you to have one.. You could have refused, but anyway, i'm sorry for your loss."</blockquote>



Considering I'm 16 with no job, in school & nowhere to live. & was basically cussed out & pushed around the house until I said fine. I feel as if she made me, i couldn't handle her hitting me anymore over it & she wasn't going to come to her senses. I could have said no, you're right but with the way my mom put it I either have an abortion or she'll make sure the pregnancy is terminated either way

I'm already goingo counseling 3 times a week for my miscarriage & a few
Other things. My mom has been feeding me her xanax so I'm in a numb zombie like state. All I keep doing is looking at the ultrasounds

Quoting Kelseyklm:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Tyson's Mama ♥:</b>" She can't force you to have one.. ... [snip!] ... right but with the way my mom put it I either have an abortion or she'll make sure the pregnancy is terminated either way"

I wasn't trying to say that in a rude way, I apologize, but I understand.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Stu Padasso:</b>" I'm so sorry. If you need anyone to talk to I would be happy to talk to you anytime sweetie. Feel better <3"</blockquote>




Thank you so much!!

Quoting Kelseyklm:" I'm already goingo counseling 3 times a week for my miscarriage & a few Other things. My mom has been ... [snip!] ... things. My mom has been feeding me her xanax so I'm in a numb zombie like state. All I keep doing is looking at the ultrasounds"

Your mom sounds like shes the one that needs counseling

<blockquote><b>Quoting Tyson's Mama ♥:</b>" I wasn't trying to say that in a rude way, I apologize, but I understand. "</blockquote>




I'm sorry. I'm just lost right now. My two best friends pushed me away cause they don't agree. & all my mom wants to do is give me pills & shut me up so everything is making me crazy

<blockquote><b>Quoting Binky ♡:</b>" Your mom sounds like shes the one that needs counseling"</blockquote>




My counsler thinks so too. Like he legit said she shoul come in but she is far too high and mighty for that. ;/

If u not being born wasn't an issue I'd say her miter should've aborted her. It's people like that in this world that make it har to believe we live in a free country. As a 16 yr old by law u don't have rights to ur own body which I complexly disagree wt. it's wronge and it wasn't her decision wasn't her life that was on the line. She probably slept fine and thought nothing of it. I have a friend who was 16 when her little girl was born finished high school and is now married to te father and doing better then people four times her age. So ur mother can't use that as an excuse. I am so sorry she put u through that. I do not know the pain of having an abortion but I have miscarried...3 times actually and I know the trauma of being forced to do something against ur will. If she was my mother I would report the obvious abuse and find away out of that situation. I hope u make it through this and find someone to be a shoulder to cry on and help support u bc u deserve te rights to ur own body and make those choices on ur own. I'm really sorry for ur loss.

that is a terrible thing to go through and im sure you feel like complete smurf right now, but it will get better with time.
there are services out there that can help you in the meantime.