re: I feel worse th I've ever felt.

seriously.....u should report your mother to cps. I know you probable love her but there are families out there that would really take care of you. Your mother shouldnt be feeding her child xanax.....that crap can mess u up bad. She could go to jail for giving u her perscription.

I had an abortion in 2008...and every year when my would-have-been due date comes around I still think about it and hurt. For months after I would have givin my own life to bring that little light back into the world....All I ever wanted to be was a mama but the situation was all wrong and the daddy was all wrong and what happend happend. It does get better.....and today after thinking for 4yrs I couldnt get prego and it was all my fault because of the abortion....Im 18wks prego, and it feels right. I still think of baby #1, but you have to let go and look to the future, nothing changes the past. It will all be ok in the end....and if its not ok, its not the end. XOXOXO hang in there!

It's a really hard thing to go through. I know exactly what you're going through. I had an abortion when I was 16. I didn't really want to either but I felt so lost and confused and pressured by everyone. It takes awhile, but don't hold it in. Talking about it will make you feel so much better in the end. I know right now it seems impossible to think you could ever stop grieving, but it does happen. I don't know if you believe in God, but turning to Him was the only way I got through it. If you ever need to talk, I'm always here! & I really mean that.

I am very sorry that you are going through this. Your mother isn't the one who has to llive with this; you are. I am alarmed, though, that you are only 16 and have already been pregnant twice. It really sounds like you need a responsible adult in your life. While I don't know your mother, it sounds to me like she isn't a good role model for you. Do you have anyone else you can talk to? An aunt, older sibling, friends' mother?