re: fuckin fool i am...long message***

He sounds like a good father! He had no problem feeding him at night and doing everything that you asked. It seems to me that you are pushing him away. You are the one that cheated and yet you are questioning his loyalty to you. He sounds like he is still hurt by the fact that you cheated and it sounds to me like there's a lot of drama coming from you and that you are playing games with him You told him that you were leaving with your son and that you were going somewhere that he wouldn't know about. (not my moms, not my friends....) then not even a min later you say, no, I'm staying here. You mom told me... it wasn't even a min yet how could she tell you that fast. You both need to work on your trust issues. It seems like you don't think he'll be faithful bc you weren't and he's sounds sick of being accussed when you were the one who cheated. He may have cheated, I dunno, but you need to trust him when he tells you that he hasn't. I think it bothers you that he talks to other girls, and instead of being dramatic about it you should talk to him and tell him your true feelings, it bothers me that you are talking to girls... Also, have some confidence, he's with you- enjoy it- don't jump to the conclusion that he must be cheating! Finally, it will take time for him to get over what you did you need to give him that time to build trust back and stop playing games. The happier you both are the sooner he can get over it. Obviously, he does care about you and your son. Just my opinion-