Quoting Kelly and Brandon:" I had an abortion about 5 years ago and I don't regret it because it was most definately for the best, ... [snip!] ... I want this baby more than anything but I feel like if I get my hopes up then something might go wrong. Can anyone relate?"
I had an abortion 5 years ago, the same week I had the abortion this last year I was out I was pregnant and was 5 weeks 6 days(the exact measurement I was for the abortion).
At first I was in shock, I though it was too soon and that I didnt deserve it. I counted every week as a milestone, saying to my baby "ok little girl just make it to 14 weeks, ok now make it to 21 weeks" and so on. I am now 27 weeks and I am finally coming to realize that I do in fact deserve this little girl and how much my husband and I love her already. My DH was the father of the other baby, we did not have jobs and were struggling to raise his son(4 then). He was with me the entire time and did not pressure me into my choice, this time around I was worried because we were still living with my mom after moving home from out of state. We make a decent amount of money but were saving to move out so I almost felt like oh god do I need to make this decision again? I called my DH crying because I want to be a mother so badly and I was worried it wasnt the right time, he calmly told me how much he loves me and how excited he is.
We moved out into my old house(owned by my mom but we pay mortgage), and are so excited to be having this little girl. I think of our baby we couldnt have as an angel, that baby gave me this baby and I cannot be more grateful or blessed.
I know how it feels, please feel free to pm me!