re: Weight loss journey

<blockquote><b>Quoting ♥Love♥:</b>" Thank you! I am sure you will see a difference soon   I need to start meal planning and going to the ... [snip!] ... store once a week, I think that would help me. But Im such a bad cook, like seriously lol. I need to find simple stuff to make!"</blockquote>



Yeah I'm not the cook in the house lol. I just need to stop grabbing pantry foods, or others call them packaged foods. I don't like the junk anyhow but I'm just so busy! On the other hand though I don't want to lose sight of this and start gaining since I gain so easily.

My best friend just got engaged!  

Her wedding is June 1st and I swear to god I better be smaller than a dress size 12 (the size I was in my wedding dress) by then!  

But tomorrow I'm challenging myself. I have a notebook filled with everything I'm supposed to be doing and I will succeed! I reallllllllllllllly want another 20lb off by the time Seth gets home.

Quoting aℓyssa™:" My best friend just got engaged!   Her wedding is June 1st and I swear to god I better be smaller ... [snip!] ... I'm supposed to be doing and I will succeed! I reallllllllllllllly want another 20lb off by the time Seth gets home. "

I am sure you can meet your goals!! June 1st was my original wedding date   we had to change it when we changed to disney world. I would kill to be in a size 12 again. You can do it girl!

My mom is so hurtful sometimes its unbelievable   I am going to disney world in a few weeks on vacation and to do wedding planning- pick flowers, food, decorations etc... I keep telling asking her opinions and today she told me she was sick of all the questions. I said "I want you to tell me know what you want (she is paying 100%) so I dont get down there, plan an entire wedding and you hate everything I pick." She said "I dont care what you pick! The wedding is already going to be smurfing tacky as it is! This is not the country club wedding I wanted!! If you choose dumb smurf you are only embarrassing yourself infront of 50 guests. It just doesnt matter because it isnt a country club wedding!"  

The sad thing is, I think she really meant it, and didnt just say it out of anger. She then belittled me about how I need to lose weight (like I didnt know her opinion on that  ) and the wedding photographs will be awful to look back on if I am still so heavy.   wft, seriously? I dont even know what to say to her. I am at a total loss. Thanks for listening to my vent, it felt good to tell someone!

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Quoting ♥Love♥:" My mom is so hurtful sometimes its unbelievable   I am going to disney world in a few weeks on vacation ... [snip!] ... I dont even know what to say to her. I am at a total loss. Thanks for listening to my vent, it felt good to tell someone!"

Wow. . . .I'm sorry love. That's HORRIBLE of her to say. I'm amazed you were able to hold your tongue. I think I'd have lost my temper with that. It's not tacky, it's about what YOU like for YOUR wedding. Hell, I got married in Vegas and guess what? I was perfect! I was at one of my heaviest weight, and I still think the pictures are perfect because they are of my wedding. It was about my husband and I, not about what weight I was, or what other people would have wanted.

You just try to shake it off love. People who are hard headed and cold hearted will be bitches sometimes. Just try not to let it bother you. You'll be MUCH happier in 10 years that you did what YOU wanted, even if she doesn't like it.

Quoting she nan igans:" Wow. . . .I'm sorry love. That's HORRIBLE of her to say. I'm amazed you were able to hold your tongue. ... [snip!] ... try not to let it bother you. You'll be MUCH happier in 10 years that you did what YOU wanted, even if she doesn't like it."

Thank you for your support. I think its because she is so jealous of her sister and her sisters daughters. They are the skinny girls she wishes she had I honestly think. One of them (my cousin) got married this year and OMFG she would not shut the HELL up about the damn wedding. And every time she has the opportunity she will say, Im not going to buy you that new, just use the one from her wedding. Its inexpensive smurf, why cant I have my own wedding?? We were going to have our weddings at the same church and reception place before I changed mine so she wanted me to basically copy her "perfect" wedding. (My dad finally stepped in and let me change it.) And the weight I am at now has been my weight all of college and high school. (I gained like 20 in college but still similar) so this is my "normal" body type for me so to speak you know? I had been doing really well eating better this week and smurf like this makes me want to give up, its sad I let her get in my head so much  

Quoting ♥Love♥:" Thank you for your support. I think its because she is so jealous of her sister and her sisters daughters. ... [snip!] ... really well eating better this week and smurf like this makes me want to give up, its sad I let her get in my head so much  "

Wow Love I'm sorry but your mother sounds like a real cold hearted B! Sorry if you feel that steps over the line but I am not one to hold my opinion irl or on the web. You do what you want for your wedding and you will be happy with it and that is what matters. You work your butt off exercising and eating right and feel good about yourself not because of the size you are but the work you put into this. YOU CAN DO THIS! Do not let her win, she doesn't deserve it, you do!

Quoting ♥Love♥:" My mom is so hurtful sometimes its unbelievable   I am going to disney world in a few weeks on vacation ... [snip!] ... I dont even know what to say to her. I am at a total loss. Thanks for listening to my vent, it felt good to tell someone!"

Omgosh, I'm so sorry Love.   I went through the same type of thing with my dad before we got married (and literally all through out middle/high school), so I know how you feel with her belittling her. It really messes with you.  

I did Insanity this morning and this time I'm sticking with it! I'm proud of myself for how far I've come (from SW 212- 217 in January), but it's not enough for me. My body has changed a lot and now at 180, I look a LOT different and better then what I did at 180 at the beginning of this summer. But I really want to lose another 20lb before Seth gets back, I'm going to push for 30lb. I know it's going to be hard and I might be setting myself up to be let down. But I'm going to try my hardest!

Quoting aℓyssa™:" I did Insanity this morning and this time I'm sticking with it! I'm proud of myself for how far I've ... [snip!] ... push for 30lb. I know it's going to be hard and I might be setting myself up to be let down. But I'm going to try my hardest! "

You can do it   You are inspiration to me! I really want to get to 180. I weighed that when I met SO and I miss it. You have stuck with it so well this far, I am sure you can make it to 20 or 30 by then!

Quoting aℓyssa™:" Omgosh, I'm so sorry Love.   I went through the same type of thing with my dad before we got married ... [snip!] ... literally all through out middle/high school), so I know how you feel with her belittling her. It really messes with you.   "

Thank you, I appreciate your empathy. I am so glad I have you and all the wonderful ladies on here for support. Ive been trying to talk to my parents less (like only when I need to say something, not calling anymore to chit chat) but idk if its working, I swear the more I talk to them, the more control they feel they have over my life and the less I talk to them the more need they have to regain that control. Its so frustrating. SO and I are hoping to eventually move away from here but that wont happen for at least another several years

Quoting ♥Love♥:" You can do it   You are inspiration to me! I really want to get to 180. I weighed that when I met SO ... [snip!] ... that when I met SO and I miss it. You have stuck with it so well this far, I am sure you can make it to 20 or 30 by then!"

Ahh! Thank you. That seriously means a lot. <3

Quoting ♥Love♥:" Thank you, I appreciate your empathy. I am so glad I have you and all the wonderful ladies on here for ... [snip!] ... so frustrating. SO and I are hoping to eventually move away from here but that wont happen for at least another several years"

Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. I'm sorry you have to deal with that.  

Quoting ~*~ Nichole ~*~:" Wow Love I'm sorry but your mother sounds like a real cold hearted B! Sorry if you feel that steps over ... [snip!] ... of the size you are but the work you put into this. YOU CAN DO THIS! Do not let her win, she doesn't deserve it, you do!"

No need to be sorry, I appreciate your honesty. I think she is too. Idk why she has been lately, she used to not be. I think she just really resents me getting older, moving out and having my own life. Thank you for your support!!