Raia Sunshine Elizabeth Chen* 11-19-07 little late

Better late than never. We finally got a computer that works, so now I can upload pictures, yay!

My beautiful ray of sunshine came into the world on November 19, 2007 at 11:20pm. Headful of brown hair, and eyes so deep blue they were purple.

Here's the gist, I was in labor for about 22 hours andpushed her out in 20 minutes. I wanted to do it natural, but I loaded up on the drugs; my midwife was supposed to deliver, but I got a doctor I'd never even met; Keink was supposed to cut the cord, the doctor didn't even ask and did it himself; in the tv shows they always throw the baby on the mom right after, but I had to wait 30 minutes to even look at her, the doctor just lifted her up for a second before she was taken to the adjoining room, all I really saw was her left leg. I got to hold her for a few minutes but then I had to share with the grandparents, and other relatives and friends.
She was the most beautiful thing I've everseen in my life, but I didn't feel like she was mine for the first month. I kept thinking that I shouldn't gettoo attachedbecause "her real parents will come and get her".I cried all the time, failed at breastfeeding,and had 4 months of post partum depression, that I'm finally over, but I think it's just regular depression now. I felt like everyone was trying to take her away from me, or that they didn't want us to bond, and I still feel like that with my boyfriend's family (they say I hog the baby!)
I often say that the day of her birth was the longest,shortest, best and worst day of my life. Even though the experience wasn't how I wanted it to be, I can't change it. Atleast I got something really great out of it all.
She's my everything and I don't know what I'd do without her.

There's another one where I'm flippin' the bird.

First picture.







This one was the day after her birth.

Congrat! She is beautiful and my daughter was born that day also!

Very cute!

I'm sorry you've had such a tough time with it all. But your daughter is very beautiful!  

What a cutie! I love Myrtle Beach!! I am from Abbeville... VERY SMALL TOWN! We are planning on visitingthe beachsometime this summer with the little ones.