I hope everything is well wih you. I have 3 kids. I had two at the age of 19, having had two abortions prior to my first being born when I was 18. I believe I was 15 and 17? when I had the abortions. It was kind of a forced thing I felt by my abusive bf. Anyhow, I am now pregnant with my 4th baby and am 30 years of age. I have an Associates degree and am working on my Bachelors degree. I own my own in home daycare since I have so many kiddos of my own. (Just a small idea of me ) I read most of the posts here and am actually in tears about all you are going through. I hope for you and your family that everything works out. This is a tough decision and it seems like you were asking for advice? I am scared to say too much so as not to sound hateful I am not meaning to at all! If it were me at 19, with 4 kids, I would not abort. Hopefully nobody gets mad at me for saying this and it seems maybe you had your mind made up already. Ultimately, it is your decision Good luck with everything and I hope you find out soon whats going! Best thoughts going your way!