I was THRILLED to find out I was pregnant,I've always dreamed of starting a family and being a mama. We started trying after I stopped my birth control around September. Around the beginning of November I noticed small changed in my body, and our dog became crazy. I decided it was probably a good idea to take another pregnancy test (all the previous 3 were negative.) sure enough this came out positive on November 9th. I got it confirmed at a clinic. It was true
When I went to my first real appointment I was only 4 weeks..there was just a tiny little sac. I wasn't nervous because that's too soon to barley see anything. My next appointment was December 7th and I was 7 weeks along this time...my baby looked like a jellybean with a very small flicker heartbeat was 136. I had the ultrasound in hand and everything sounded GREAT! My next appointment was December 29th. I had spotting just a LITTLE bit one day,which they said was normal..so as days went by I had nothing to be nervous about at all in my mind. I felt GREAT,no morning sickness even. The 29th rolls around and they try to find the heartbeat and couldn't informing me that this isn't unusual. We went to the ultrasound and there it was. No heartbeat. I was stunned and cried,nothing was wrong I was expecting to hear my little heartbeat. I went in at 11 weeks and got informed the baby stopped growing at 8 weeks. Nothing in the world could compare to the heartbreak I felt .
Since my angel passed 2 weeks before and my body wasn't doing anything they scheduled a D&C. Which was TERRIFYING...getting drugged up and getting told to just listen to music while this was happening. Once the procedure was done felt I almost felt closure and was ready to crawl in bed to cry and recover. No bleeding once again for a week. One night I started bleeding so much that it went straight through the pad and my pants in less than a hour with blood clots the size of a gold ball. We went straight the ER were they did an ultrasound seeing that there was still tissue left from the D&C. I went to my dr the next day who said that everything was going as it should and that I'd get lab work done just to make sure my hormone levels were going down as they should be. I wasn't too scared after my lab work because the bleeding had stopped once again. I got a call around 5 pm that night saying that I was still at 18,000 and that I'd have to go to the pharmacy to get 4 pills I'd have to insert that would start labor to get the placenta to finish it's process. After I did that all that happened was HORRIBLE diarrhea,no bleeding at all AGAIN! I went and had a blood test done two more days at the hospital and the hormone level never dropped at all. I had a surgical D&C scheduled for the 13th(the day before my 11 month anniversary) where I would be put under by anesthesia and get the procedure done for the second time. I found out that the tissue had been trapped due to the shape it had. The odds of this happening was 1 and 500! I couldn't even believe the statics of it though
I miss my little angel every day and pray every pregnancy for everyone goes perfect! All the mamas are always in my thoughts. I felt so alone after a miscarriage!