Prayers for my Xavier..

Hey ladies,
well not only did i go into labor on my own Saturday night but I managed to have a fast wonderful delivery. I will post my whole story at a later date with pictures.
But in a nut shell my newest soul mate turned out to be a BOY!!! I was told girl for several mths and hadprepared for a girl.Needless to say my i.u.d baby kept the plot thick all the way up to the end. and I have much to return and get.
However my angel boy is in an N.I.C.U as i type right now. My heart is breaking and i have so much guilt weighing in on my soul .I just find it hard to breathe. He has a heart murmur(doc said not to worry about that) but he has some sort of unknown infection and blockage that is causing him not to be able to breathe normal.It rips at my entire being to have had watched for 2 days him struggle so teribleand then be moved so far away from me.
So today after i was discharged from the hospital he was transported to another hospital 1.5 hrs from my house.I went to see him a.s.ap.and was told they would havehim stay between 3-5 days.I just wanted to evaporate I just could not even wrap my mind around not being with him.My husband had to peel me away from the N.I.C.U and he promised to bring me back in the morning.
Iknow he is in wonderful hands and I will go see him tomorrow.I also am aware that some babies stay far longer or worse never come home.So I am just waiting to see him again ..even though I can't hold him,or nurse him, or even smell him..but im hopeful they will be able to help him.
Thank you all for the great conversations and topics...you all sure did make time go by and I will post pic's and story as soon as I have him home.Thanks again god bless.
My angel was born
April 6th 2008
at 11:22 pm
his name is
Xavier Ryan-Lee Ragsdale
he weighed an amazing
8lbs 10oz (like i've said before..i have big ass babies ha!ha!)
20.5 inches
he was due April 25th but I was supposed to be induced on the 18th,,however he had his own plans.oh and yes is was a vag birth 

I hope he is well and home soon. He'll be in my prayers 

He will be in my thoughts and prayers..Keep strong he feeds of your strength right now.

Aw that's awesome that you were surprised with a wonderful little boy. He's already a fighter because he faught to make sure that you wouldn't find out she was a he until he came out   Keep your head up!! and I will be praying for you and Xavier. xx