Ladies, share your weight struggles/stories

With so many mommies here struggling with weight issues, I thought it would be nice to have a thread where everyone could share their struggles with weight.

Share your stories, offer support and advice, etc...

I think this will help everyone in realizing their not alone in having body issues.

I will come share my long struggle with my weight tonight hopefully, when the little one is finally asleep.

I look forward to reading what others have to share!

Before I got pregnant I was a size seven and comfortable at a what i consider now, dainty, 135lbs. Today, I'm 37 weeks and 3 days and at 194... It's horrible. I think about it all day long. I haven't had much energy this entire pregnancy and as I get closer to my due date - I am getting so careless with what I put in my mouth, now. Ugh - very depressing. I hope and really do believe that once he's here, I can get myself to go out do things and since I won't have him actually in my body, I won't feel extra responsibility to eat. I know they say you need only a certain amount of extra calories [healthy] to have a good gain for your baby but I go nuts.. ew, there's nothing cute about gaining so much weight and HATING looking in the mirror. 18 days to go! Haha.. 

pre-pregnancy, i was very athletic. i have been playing volleyball for 9 years and it keeps me fit. now that im pregnant, my weight has been very hard for me to control! i eat too much sweets...and i try to cut down but its sooo hard! aggh. and im in lovvve with rice. i have to eat it with all the meats i eat! and my doc said i need to cut down on that too! my body has been soo heavy and im not use to it!!! im getting all kinds of stretch marks that i have never seen before!  it seems like im just letting myself go because i dont really exercise as much as i should!!! it makes me feel just heavy and ugly!!!! i really want to motivate myself to walk more often and watch what i eat! i have 2 more months left for my baby to be here and i hope everything will be fine with me as well as my babygirl!!!!!!!!!!
i hope ill be able to shed these pounds after i have her!!!

My weight issues have actually come of just recently...I've posted a few things on here but no numbers so I guess I'll do that here!
I am 5'8"
Pre-pregnancy I was 135 pounds and in great shape.
When I delivered I was exactly 170 pounds.
I was super excited to have lost all of my pregnancy weight quickly and by about 2 1/2-3 months pp i was a couple of pounds below my pre-pregnancy weight - even better!...
well at almost 5 months pp i am about 122 pounds. mind you, i am 5'8. i've never felt so self-conscious. i keep getting sick and am continuing to breastfeed and somedays i feel like the bf-ing and the energy i put out is more than the calories i'm taking in.
it's funny how, it's innapropriate to say things to a woman who is overweight about her weight yet people can comment on mine all day long. i was called a bobblehead yesterday. it was a joke....but, not a good one for someone who isn't feeling so great about themselves.
i would love to get back in shape though, but after talking to my Doctor, I need to gain 8-10 pounds before I start a new work-out routine.
I am about to start a diet where I eat small meals every 3-4 hours in hopes of putting some healthy weight back on sooo hopefully that goes well =]

Pre-Pregnancy I was 108 lbs. I'm pretty petite (5'2) and I wore a size 2. I gained over 40 lbs by the time I delivered! I weighed 153 lbs at my last Dr's visit 3 days before I gave birth. Afterwards, I lost all but 10 lbs. I now weigh 118 lbs and I wear a size 6. I don't think I will ever be a size 2 again because my hips seem to have spread out immensely! But I hope to shed the last 10 lbs and go down to a size 4. I'm almost there, but you know what they say...

"The last 10 pounds are the hardest to lose!!!"

I am about 15 pounds above my pre-pregnancy weight, but more importantly to me, I am about 40 pounds above my pre-wedding weight. I work out pretty regularly but my diet is terrible.

If I could, I would just starve myself (not literally, but probably like 1,000 calories per day), but I can't do that since I'm breastfeeding. I want to take diet pills because they have worked for me in the past but since I'm BFing, that's a no go, too.

I'm so tired of the way I look. It's something I've been self-conscious about my entire life, even though looking back at old pictures of me, I was never fat.

My main downfall in the weight department is that I cannot control what I eat. I feel like I'm starving all the time.

Ok, for me my weight problems really started in jr. high...but I still remember the first time I really thought I was fat, which was around 4th or 5th grade, so age 11/12... I was back to school shopping with my mom, her friend and two daughters and I had to buy a bigger size than the one daughter.

After that I have always been so self concious on my body and weight.

By 9th grade, I was 175 pounds. I was pretty much an average sized kid up until then. I think I somehow gained weight after my parents divorced, without being 100% aware of it. So yeah, I got fat.

My sophomore year of HS I lost a bunch of weight through unhealthy habits, bulemia & starvation... which warped into that plus over exercising and before I knew it, I was down to 113 pounds, and on a 5'4" frame, I wasn't too skinny but pretty skinny and still thought I was fat.

I got myself over the starving myself but began an obsession with body building/weightlifting and healthy eating and was looking reallt hot doing really great and had even gone back up to a healthy weight of 130, but with muscle.

Then somehow I lost sight of my love for weightlifingand crept up to 145, where I was when I became pregnant. I still looked really good, looking back... even though I thought I was fat then.

While preggo I gained 59 pounds, which brought me up to 204... now I am holding steady at 160 but my body isn't anything like before. I have so much extra fat and loose skin on my belly & hips... I hate it. My body looks foriegn to me and I can barely stand to look inthe mirror without wanting to cry.

I would love to go back in time and slap myself silly for thinking I was fat before. Ugh. If only I had the same body I had at 17 when I looked my best...

When I first met my boyfriend I had just lost 37 and a half pounds. I was at 138lb.

I wasn't skinny, but I wasn't fat either. I still had a little bit of pudge but for the first time in my life I was actually happy with the way I looked. Once I got together with my boyfriend I gradually started gaining the weight again because I was just really comfortable with my life.

I fell pregnant 12 months later with a weight of 195lb. I gained about 37lb taking me to my highest weight ever; 233lb. After I had Ryan, I got down to 195lb after two weeks. Then I got lazy and at 4 months pp I'm now currently at a weight of 215lb.

I've started walking alot more, like when I take my boyfriend to work I'll drive him, park my car and do a 30 minute walk home with Ryan in his pram. Then I'll do the 30 minute walk back and drive him home. If I need to go anywhere during the day I'll also walk.

My problem is that I'm REALLY impatient. If I don't see any changes within a couple of days I get really down and upset about it and I binge eat to the max. I just have no self control right now. I feel the difference in myself, I feel like an elephant carrying around all this unnecessary weight. I am only 5'1" so every lb I gain is VERY noticeable.