Today would have been my due date

Is it normal to hold onto this day? To keep track of when I would have met them? I feel crazy for this but today, I'm just so heartbroken. I still don't feel I made the right decision because it was decided for the wrong reasons. I did love that child even though i hardly knew him/her.

Is this normal at all? To keep track of your would be due date? Or am I really just sorta crazy for all this?

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Quoting Kellen:" Is it normal to hold onto this day? To keep track of when I would have met them? I feel crazy for this ... [snip!] ... knew him/her. Is this normal at all? To keep track of your would be due date? Or am I really just sorta crazy for all this?"

I do not think about it.
I don't even remember what it was.

 

I think thats a normal part of the grieving process.

Tomorrow would have been my DD and my child would be nine, it still bugs me alot although I did what I thought was right at the time. Now that I am older and in a good marraige I feel even more guilty. It's a hard thing to go through

Thanks ladies. It kinda helps a bit to know that I'm not completely crazy for remembering the day.

Hopefully one day it just won't be so depressing.

For my first angle was july 15, 2002, and for my second baby was sept 22, 2009. I still remember and I don't think I will ever forget.

Quoting Kellen:" Is it normal to hold onto this day? To keep track of when I would have met them? I feel crazy for this ... [snip!] ... knew him/her. Is this normal at all? To keep track of your would be due date? Or am I really just sorta crazy for all this?"

My mother has for years. I don't know if it's exactly sane or not.. I think that's up to you to decide I guess.

My daughter and my aborted baby had the exact same due date, and my daughter was born on that date. I torture myelf not only on that date, but everytime i think about it. I feel very guilty.

i would be due on january 24th. i still know how many weeks i would be , how far along the baby would be every week , and how long till i would give birth. I think its normal to remember. I think it would be abnormal if you didnt .

No, it wouldn't be. I made my screenname, "C410" because 04/10/2012 would have been my due date... I had my abortion on September 25, 2011. So, I will always remember that date so clearly ; (.

I can only imagine when the time comes next year when I am faced with the month of April. How are you coping with it?

I loved the child too.... And to hear that the sex of the child is developed within the first trimester scared the crap out of me... because I actually aborted a male/female ; (.

Hi I feel the same way.
I had an abortion on the 20th of November 2010
I was 17 weeks.
I still remember the time i was booked in 7am in the morning.
I still remember sitting in the waiting room feeling heart broken I was being made to do this sitting between my mother and her friend.
When I woke up from the procedure I was in so much physical pain. I literally just got up and left not even 15 minutes after waking up. I cried and vomited all the way home which was a 2 hour drive.
When I arrived home I just cryed like I had never cryed before I was heartbroken I just wanted to die.
Two weeks later I couldnt deal with thinking about it anymore and took an overdose of pills. My sister found me. I was rushed to hospital and they found my liver and kidneys were starting to become poisoned. I actually thought I was going to die. My Parents were sitting by my side. I reached out to hold my mums hand. I was scared. She refused to hold my hand. My dad and her then argued and they both left the room. I cant remember much else after that. The next few days I was transferred to a Phyciatric hospital. I was there in the locked ward until three days before christmas 2010. After I got out of there I was a zombie I still felt lost without my baby.
Then something inside of me realised I couldnt keep going like this.
I went back to work. Me and My partner slowly tryed to move on. We decided to try for another baby and just move out together.
My due date was 3rd of May 2011. A few weeks after I would of had my baby I found out I was pregnant again. This Time I knew I wouldnt let anyone steal my baby away from me ever.
Now I am 31 weeks Pregnant, due 10th of february 2012 and expecting a boy.
My partner and I couldnt be more happy.
We still grieve for our baby what could of been.
I hurts so much. I'll think about that day everyday for the rest of my life.
My baby will always be in my heart.

I know how you feel I am constantly thinking about my DD which would of been friday 15th June 2012. I am trying to think of how i can mark the occasion privately with my partner. any suggestions would be very welcome

Oh, I think it's completely normal to be still grieving and working through this loss. So, give yourself some time and don't hesitate to reach out for some support in dealing with this. For example, I know you've found a lot of help on this site, but there may also be some support groups you could find in your area. In fact, I think a pregnancy resource center could probably put you in touch with a group. And, I know an organization called OptionLine (1/800-712-HELP) might help in locating a PRC. Lastly, I work at Focus on the Family and I hear from a lot of women like yourself who are struggling after an abortion. And, I came across this website that might be encouraging to you. Just a thought. Well, know someone out there is praying for you! ((Hugs))

April 10, 2013.....would have been ny due date....I cried all day long. I know my choice was the best one for me at the time. But I wish I wouldn't have done it. Would have love to meet him/her and given then the chance to live.