re: Deagan's Birth Story [LONG]

I just bawled my eyes out over what has to be the best written birth story ever. I felt like I was living that. OMG. Im so sorry for your loss. You have a gorgeous Angel baby.

Thank you all. I went to school to become a good writer. Its what I love to do. My goal with every "story" I write, whether its a true recounting of my life events or total fiction, is to do 3 things:

1) Make it feel real and personal like you're actually living it
2) To get the audience emotionally involved
3) to make the audience feel like I'm speaking either TO them or FOR them (depending on how much they relate to the subject)

However, this was completely without effort. I didn't edit it at all. Its just what flowed out of me at that moment, completely unchanged. I need to write the follow-up to it out.

Beautiful story momma. I feel your sorrow and strength. My hope and prayers are with your family. Your son was beautiful and you will see him again. Stay strong.

this is the most beautiful and more heartbreaking thing I have ever read.

Thank you for sharing.

Quoting That Mik Girl:" this is the most beautiful and more heartbreaking thing I have ever read. Thank you for sharing."

thank you. I hope you never have to experience any of that first-hand, but thank you for the sympathy.

Quoting P Pickle Pants:" thank you. I hope you never have to experience any of that first-hand, but thank you for the sympathy."

not first hand. but i have held my best friends hand as she went thru this 3 times. the first time at 8 months, then at 26 and 24 weeks.

I pray for everyone who has gone thru this.

Quoting That Mik Girl:" not first hand. but i have held my best friends hand as she went thru this 3 times. the first time at 8 months, then at 26 and 24 weeks. I pray for everyone who has gone thru this."

I can't imagine doing this more than once. I hope that I never have to watch my child take his last breath ever again.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I lost my first daughter when I was 6 months pregnant. Its a heart breaking experience...not one I wish to share with anyone. My heart goes out to you.

When i read your story its just made me cry!
You wrote it with great words. & im so sorry for you lost!
RIP Deagan. he's looking over you & the rest of his family.

I have never read anything that has touched me as much as what you have written here. Not only are you an amazing writer, but your soul is just pure beauty. My heart really goes out to you and your family for the loss you have had to endure. I'm sure he's a little angel in heaven looking over you all.

Quoting Jessica Caylee:" I have never read anything that has touched me as much as what you have written here. Not only are you ... [snip!] ... out to you and your family for the loss you have had to endure. I'm sure he's a little angel in heaven looking over you all. "

thank you. I am glad that his life has touched so many, even those who never met him or myself. He was an amazing little guy and I am forever grateful that I got to be his mama, for however short a time.

Quoting P Pickle Pants:" You don't go into this thinking "I'm going to lose this baby." Hell, when you see two lines on a ... [snip!] ... me enough places for it to go to hold it all. Until then, I sit here aching with so much love that I may burst at the seams."

You are one strong women. I am bawling my eyes out from your story i could feel your pain. May each day get better and easier. May he watch over you and your family knowing how loved he truly is.

This is so beautifully written.. I feel so sick to my stomach now.. I could feel your pain, and I felt pain for you as I read it.. and I feel pain for you now that I've finished reading it. I am so sorry for your loss that I can't even put it into words. I envy your strength.. I'm so so sorry :'(

Quoting Cohen's Momma:" This is so beautifully written.. I feel so sick to my stomach now.. I could feel your pain, and I felt ... [snip!] ... reading it. I am so sorry for your loss that I can't even put it into words. I envy your strength.. I'm so so sorry :'("

Don't envy my strength. Just pray you never NEED to be that strong.

Thank you. I had one beautiful hour with my little boy, and that will keep me going.