re: Depression/Suicide Support Thread

My anxiety is extremely high. I'm struggling alot with alot of things. I just feel I'm unworthy to get better. I just feel unworthy to vent on here about it.

What scares me the most is that they posted the signs of a suicidal person in the newspaper and I have all but one sign. Im not struggling with alcohol or drug abuse but everything else I am. I'm scared. I have talked to my counselor (I called her) and won't be doing anything but that scares me the most.

Sometimes I know that being in the hospital could be the better choice for everyone involved. I feel like I'm holding my daughter back since we never leave the house. I feel like my mom and dad always have to monitor me, almost to a fault. I would NEVER ever attempt suicide where my family members could find me: ever.

I'm very depressed and I cry every day even with medication, therapy,cats, reading, writing. I hate my life. I need advice.

When will this disease be gone for good?  

My depression has gotten a bit better.. but my anxiety is getting worse and I'm having such a hard time sleeping.. The resterol (sp?) isn't really working.  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" My depression has gotten a bit better.. but my anxiety is getting worse and I'm having such a hard time sleeping.. The resterol (sp?) isn't really working.  "</blockquote>




Ugh I'm sorry   have you gone back to the doctor recently?

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" My depression has gotten a bit ... [snip!] ... The resterol (sp?) isn't really working.  "</blockquote> Ugh I'm sorry   have you gone back to the doctor recently?"

I go back next Monday for my follow-up. I have to find a therapist in the meantime though.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" I go back next Monday for my follow-up. I have to find a therapist in the meantime though."</blockquote>




I would bring up what your complaints are. Have you been looking?

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" I go back next Monday for my follow-up. ... [snip!] ... a therapist in the meantime though."</blockquote> I would bring up what your complaints are. Have you been looking?"

Not really.  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" Not really.  "</blockquote>


I would start looking

Life is the most precious gift take care of it....In life there are lots of up down comes ,good days bad days and believe me one day everything will be alright

Today Im feeling so depressed and sad. ugh. the thing to set me off..is my boss. He is always being rude to me or picking on the smallest details.

Apart of me thinks its because e doesn't have any kids and I have 2, and I'm only 24, and he is like 40, and him and his wife have not been successful with having any kids.
I don't know. I know life isn't fair to people. I think he would make a good father and his wife a good mother.
I just feel like im not good enough, I always make mistakes.

It sucks!!!

how does one build there self esteem up?

I am nervous posting this but I will. I am so emotionally drained. I feel like I am not good enough for myself or my daughter. Her father just walked in the picture out of nowhere and tries to play dad. He never calls, never begs for my forgiveness, never asks how she is. He has never met her. How can you say you care when you never show it? I am fighting so many things right now that I really don't want to discuss. I don't know where it all came from. It just hit me at once and I have no control. I am just sick of life. I hold it in all day so my daughter can't see it. But I am so broken. I don't know where or who to turn to. I don't understand why I was fine, happy, and fighting. Now I can't do it at all.  

Quoting Bella_Chelle:" I am nervous posting this but I will. I am so emotionally drained. I feel like I am not good enough for ... [snip!] ... I don't know where or who to turn to. I don't understand why I was fine, happy, and fighting. Now I can't do it at all.  "

maybe because you have been there the whole time with your daughter and he hasn't said thank you, or given you kudos to being there.
and he thinks he can walk in and all is forgiven when it comes to your daughter?
im sure your daughter would love to have her dad, that's if he smartens up and stays in the picture and is kind and treats her right, not disappears again.

I hope you start to feel better!

if you need to talk anytime, or vent, im hear.

Quoting thats me.  :" maybe because you have been there the whole time with your daughter and he hasn't said thank you, or ... [snip!] ... and treats her right, not disappears again. I hope you start to feel better! if you need to talk anytime, or vent, im hear."

Thank you. I would love for us to all be a family together. But honestly he is awful. He says psychotic things that worry me. I am way too embarrassed to even give an example. We were together a short time before I got pregnant. Now I straightened up and became a mom and he ran off doing stupid smurf. He hasn't even talked to me for days. He talks about killing people and just totally out there stuff. I wish it would change but I'm 99% sure it will never change. Some nights it's just hard to deal with. Then I start thinking about everything I am struggling with at once. It's like I torture myself.