Hello Ladies

I know I dont post much anymore but I still am around almost everyday checking in. I tried to seperate myself from everything "baby". It doesn't make me feel any better. Today our baby should have been born but instead I'm here alone. I feel such a loss and so alone. It's been getting worse and I've been put on meds for PMDD and mild depression. They make me feel worse so I just stopped taking them. I want so badly to have another baby but looks like that may not happen anytime soon. My boyfriend was extended in Iraq again but this time with a definate on 15 days R&R in March or April. He called to tell me that it would only be 1 1/2 months until we see each other again. 2 days later I found out that our deployment is back on so I wont even get to see him until the beginning of September. That date is only if we come back on time and as history tells us, we are always extended once underway. The only thing about the military that I hate, always saying goodbye.

Thought I would just come in here and vent a little bit. Mybest friend refuses to talk to me about the baby and my BF isn't here nor does he understand the loss that I feel. I can't blame him. I dont think any of this was real for him. He left before I even found out so he wasn't here for any of it.

Thats my vent. Hope you ladies are doing well.

I am so sorry you are hurting. We are here anytime you need to vent or cry. I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel better, but I can always listen.

I'm so sorry, but we are here for you!!! Keep checking in with us.

I'm sorry your hurting... I find that talking and venting help... I have been doing it alot lately.... My due date was in five days and have been venting alot on my friends... the worst part of this week was my friends sister was due two weeks after me and she just had her son.... so it really hurt to see pics of the baby, I'm happy for her though!! Our day will come.... we WILL get a BFP! 

Gosh I hate the military. Why do they need to ruin families like that? Well just know that all of us are here for you. We weren't that far off due date wise. Jordan should have been born the 29th. Anyways....I hope things turn arouond for you soon.

I am sooo sorry to hear about your loss. Taking the time to grieve is important no matter what people say. It is what will make you heal in the end, so go ahead and vent if it'll make you feel better.

Good Luck in the future and Take Care

I am so sorry for what you are going through.