re: Rape and Sexual Abuse Survivors Thread

I was raped when I was 17 by my boyfriend. I'd had a tonsilectomy and had a couple complications. My mom brought me home and I was hopped up on a ton of pain killers, it's still all a haze. I remember him coming over to visit, he was wearing a cameo jacket (which has become a trigger for me). I don't remember a lot after that, except my mom had him leave because she and my sister were going to run up to the store and get me some more juice. My mom gave me another doseage of my meds and I laid down. He came back after they left and started proceeded to rape me. I just laid there, heavy and unable to fight or scream or anything. I was just stuck. After the initial pain (I was a virgin) I think I just blocked it out. I don't even remember him leaving.

My mom came home early because she had a bad feeling and as she was pulling up she saw his going in the opposite direction.

Quoting Bondage Barbie™[OB]:" Its difficult going through this pregnancy because I keep remembering my last. I found out I was pregnant ... [snip!] ... sleep medication and "put" myself in that position. He said I should have fought him because that's what he would have done."

That does not make it your fault.
If you didn't want it, and I am positive you didn't, it is not your fault.

Quoting Bondage Barbie™[OB]:" Its difficult going through this pregnancy because I keep remembering my last. I found out I was pregnant ... [snip!] ... sleep medication and "put" myself in that position. He said I should have fought him because that's what he would have done."

that is completely ridiculous! my abuse started when i was 4-5 and everyone said if i was telling the truth i would have said something then and not confess years later. that was hard, but to have your own SO claim it was your fault just makes me so upset. the one person your supposed to be able to count on for support no matter what situation made your situation probably more difficult to handle. im sorry you had to deal with that.

<blockquote><b>Quoting RealMrs.Perfect{BGWC}:</b>" One of my abusers went free. Because he used to be a cop. My skin crawls when think about him, and when I see him.... And I do... He lives near my Mom... I normally end up in the ER."</blockquote>




I'm sorry sweetie. That's just horrible. I've been through abuse/ rape with eleven different people since the age of five. Its just really hard to get over. I've had people tell me that since its happened so much I must be an "easy" target or inviting it in some way. Sometimes I start believing them  

Quoting almuuh:" This is a great idea. Even though I don't admit it to anyone, I was raped when i was pregnant."

Oh mama ((hugs)) I am so sorry.

Quoting Bondage Barbie™[OB]:" Its difficult going through this pregnancy because I keep remembering my last. I found out I was pregnant ... [snip!] ... sleep medication and "put" myself in that position. He said I should have fought him because that's what he would have done."

  There is nothing harder then being told that it was your fault, even partially.
Because it wasn't. <3

Quoting ♥JenniferMarie[WP]:" thats good that you can qualify. if my crackhead uncle can get it for no reason then someone who deserves ... [snip!] ... sucks that you have to deal with all that though. it cant be easy having all those people up in your business about everything."

Definitely not. :/

Quoting ♥JenniferMarie[WP]:" that is completely ridiculous! my abuse started when i was 4-5 and everyone said if i was telling the ... [snip!] ... for support no matter what situation made your situation probably more difficult to handle. im sorry you had to deal with that."

Honey DO NOT listen to them. It started for me at 4 and didn't end till i was 16! My bio mother SOLD me and my younger sister for money for drugs. Just cus we were little doesn't mean we are lying.

Quoting Mrs.PerfectSluttt♥:" I was raped when I was 17 by my boyfriend. I'd had a tonsilectomy and had a couple complications. My ... [snip!] ... My mom came home early because she had a bad feeling and as she was pulling up she saw his going in the opposite direction. "

thats horrible hun. if someone had taken advantage of me when i was in that position i would be so upset. im sorry someone you trusted betrayed you like that.

Quoting Bondage Barbie™[OB]:" <blockquote><b>Quoting RealMrs.Perfect{BGWC}:</b>" One of my abusers went free. Because ... [snip!] ... me that since its happened so much I must be an "easy" target or inviting it in some way. Sometimes I start believing them  "

It's not that at all. The sickos have a have a way of knowing we are vulnerable.

Quoting Mrs.PerfectSluttt♥:" I was raped when I was 17 by my boyfriend. I'd had a tonsilectomy and had a couple complications. My ... [snip!] ... My mom came home early because she had a bad feeling and as she was pulling up she saw his going in the opposite direction. "

I am so sorry. Did you ever make a report?

Quoting RealMrs.Perfect{BGWC}:" Honey DO NOT listen to them. It started for me at 4 and didn't end till i was 16! My bio mother SOLD me and my younger sister for money for drugs. Just cus we were little doesn't mean we are lying."

mine ended when i was about 9, but i didnt get justice til i was almost 13. thankfully my mother believes me. and my sister. its mostly his family that doesnt. it doesnt even effect me anymore that they dont believe me, but it makes me want to really speak out for the girls that were abused that young and no one believes.

Quoting DescendedDelight:" Definitely not. :/"

well at least your getting the help you need. thats the most important <3

Quoting DescendedDelight:" I am so sorry. Did you ever make a report?"

Yes, He was charged with sexual battery and statutory rape. Served 3 years and then moved to Texas. He attempted to add me on facebook about 5 months ago.

Quoting ♥JenniferMarie[WP]:" mine ended when i was about 9, but i didnt get justice til i was almost 13. thankfully my mother believes ... [snip!] ... they dont believe me, but it makes me want to really speak out for the girls that were abused that young and no one believes."

I know the feeling. SO has dealt with my panic attacks. And he knows I am parinoid... I've told him that I don't want him to take our daughter out of the room to change her EVER. And he can't hold her or help wash her in the shower.... I panic.