re: Rape and Sexual Abuse Survivors Thread

Quoting Cylus's Mommy:" I would love to join this thread, but I just can't. After 10 years I just can't talk about it. "

It's okay if you don't want to share. Maybe someday you will and now we have a place for it.

Quoting Mrs.PerfectSluttt♥:" BG has brought together amazing women from all over the world, we bond over our pregnancies, our LOs, ... [snip!] ... to speak about it and heal from it, we break their power over us. The best way out is always through.--Robert Frost "

I smurfing love you. I do... I'm in tears over how amazing it is of you to start this.

Mind if I join?  
I can bring some positive energy.

Quoting DescendedDelight:" It's okay if you don't want to share. Maybe someday you will and now we have a place for it."

  It would be better if I could open up about it but ehhh life goes on.

I'm writing the story of my life for my PT, and I realized how great it kind of felt to get things that occurred to me off my chest.
I've been struggling with PTSD because of the two rapes I experienced.
The first, when I was 13 years old by my cousin's husband.
I didn't tell anyone about it until I was 16, and my mother didn't believe me.
The second time I was raped, I was in Indiana and it was my best friend's brother who did it. She still doesn't know to this day.
There are a lot of things that trigger my flashbacks and send me into panic and anxiety attacks. It makes it impossible for me to have a job.
It's been really hard for me to live with this, but I know I'm not alone.

Quoting DescendedDelight:" I'm writing the story of my life for my PT, and I realized how great it kind of felt to get things that ... [snip!] ... It makes it impossible for me to have a job. It's been really hard for me to live with this, but I know I'm not alone."

i feel the exact same way. my cousin sexually abused me for years...and his close family still doesnt believe me..and while hes in jail we had to cut off half my family because they kept telling my cousins mom who would tell him where I was, and my direct address and he would write threatening letters even though he has a no contact order. It makes functioning in a regular society setting difficult, especially if someone comes up behinds me and bumps me on accident. i freak out   So i understand how difficult it can be to get a job and be around people for any length of time.

Quoting ♥JenniferMarie[WP]:" i feel the exact same way. my cousin sexually abused me for years...and his close family still doesnt ... [snip!] ... accident. i freak out   So i understand how difficult it can be to get a job and be around people for any length of time."

It's very difficult. Due to everything I've experienced I cannot function well in society. Being in a car alone sets off my panic attacks. I'm unfortunately going to be one of those people who are on disability because I can't work.

<blockquote><b>Quoting DescendedDelight:</b>" It's very difficult. Due to everything I've experienced I cannot function well in society. Being in ... [snip!] ... alone sets off my panic attacks. I'm unfortunately going to be one of those people who are on disability because I can't work."</blockquote>

I'm on it because I can't hold a job or function around people unless I'm with someone I trust. I still panic because I see men I think are the ones who did it.

Quoting DescendedDelight:" It's very difficult. Due to everything I've experienced I cannot function well in society. Being in ... [snip!] ... alone sets off my panic attacks. I'm unfortunately going to be one of those people who are on disability because I can't work."

as long as im alone im usually fine. unless its night time. the dark sets off my panic attacks so easily. but at least you could qualify for disability, I think its just as disabling as being paralyzed pretty much. so luckily you can get that at least.

you are all such amazing strong women. even if you don't want to share, you can feel free to join or sub to this thread and offer support to others.

Quoting ♥JenniferMarie[WP]:" as long as im alone im usually fine. unless its night time. the dark sets off my panic attacks so easily. ... [snip!] ... qualify for disability, I think its just as disabling as being paralyzed pretty much. so luckily you can get that at least."

I just applied in late February, so they had to contact the mental hospital I stayed in last October, and my current doctor for all my information. But I've already been told I'm qualified for it because of all the other conditions I have.

Quoting Bondage Barbie™[OB]:" <blockquote><b>Quoting DescendedDelight:</b>" It's very difficult. Due to everything ... [snip!] ... job or function around people unless I'm with someone I trust. I still panic because I see men I think are the ones who did it."

One of my abusers went free. Because he used to be a cop. My skin crawls when think about him, and when I see him.... And I do... He lives near my Mom... I normally end up in the ER.

Quoting Bondage Barbie™[OB]:" <blockquote><b>Quoting DescendedDelight:</b>" It's very difficult. Due to everything ... [snip!] ... job or function around people unless I'm with someone I trust. I still panic because I see men I think are the ones who did it."

  I'm so sorry. <3

Its difficult going through this pregnancy because I keep remembering my last. I found out I was pregnant about two/three weeks after "it" happened and my dh and I didn't know if she was his. He would have nothing to do with me or the pregnancy and kept saying I'd cheated on him. Then when he accepted that I hadn't, it was my fault because I was on pain and sleep medication and "put" myself in that position. He said I should have fought him because that's what he would have done.

Quoting DescendedDelight:" I just applied in late February, so they had to contact the mental hospital I stayed in last October, ... [snip!] ... doctor for all my information. But I've already been told I'm qualified for it because of all the other conditions I have."

thats good that you can qualify. if my crackhead uncle can get it for no reason then someone who deserves it should be able to use it. it sucks that you have to deal with all that though. it cant be easy having all those people up in your business about everything.