Not sure how to explain it...

This is going to sound terrible, but lately I have been feeling like I don't really want to have this baby. I feel really lucky because we weren't sure if we could conceive and now I'm 16w and I just keep thinking that something is going to happen where we aren't going to end up having it. I keep trying to get myself all jazzed up for things, like the "will it pee standing up or sitting down" ultrasound,but I just keep thinking that the next time I go in they are going to say that s/he is not breathing, or not moving, or some other thing. I look at baby stuff online and it doesn't even seemlike this could be happening. My husband has been great, but he's so nervous too... so I'm really not helping him. So maybe its not that I don't want to have it, I'm thinking its more along the lines on I don't think im going to have it. I feel like I should be like super excitied, and I just can't.

Does anyone else feel like this??

I feel like that, maybe we are depressed or something lol...I don't know, I'm like that with alot of stuff though...Maybe you have a mind set that you will give your hopes up and you don't want to?

Quoting LoveMyCoastie[ADDB]:“ I feel like that, maybe we are depressed or something lol...I don't know, I'm like that with alot of stuff though...Maybe you have a mind set that you will give your hopes up and you don't want to?”

maybe. The weird thing though is that I've always wanted a little one, and now its actully coming true. well maybe im just scared. I'm glad that i'm not the only one feeling like this... I thought maybe I was defective or something!! Sounds like we both are hahahaha... just kidding. thanks.

when you say "I just keep thinking that something is going to happen where we aren't going to end up having it" do you mean like lose it or go all the way threw and something happen at the very last minute, i had thsoe feelings when i was first pregnant as well my friend had just lost her baby girl and she was about 2 months old and i had that runnign threw my head, it still is but i pused it back and actually forgot about it for a long time, the best thing you can do well what i fond the best thing to do was not to worry about it, to think about how wonderful its going to be when you finally get to hold it in your arms, it helped me alot

it's more along the lines of thinking that I'm going to lose it. I wasn't even thinking about what could happen later, until... no im just kidding. I'm a huge believer in everything happens for a reason, so if it doesn't work out then it doesn't work out.I mean I would be devistated, don't get me wrong. I was like SUPER excitied and now im totally not. (that sounded really blondish, sorry no offense to anyone). thanks for your input though.

ahh im sorry if i put those thought is your head. but i hope everything works out well for you and you get over your fears, you will have alot more thigns to worry about before its born then that trust me

thanks. I was kidding about you putting those thoughts in my head. I can't even fathom labor right now. It sends shivers down my spine every time.

haha oh i cant wait till i go in to labour lol im a freak tho, i think its because i no its the last step b4 i get to met my little boy, i dont know but im excited about going in to labour lol

you are a freak... hahahaa... totally kidding. Maybe once im farther along i'll feel like that... thats a big maybe though. hahaha. This whole thing is just sooo weird and freaky to me. Good for you though!!! Not to very much longer I see.

yeah, well they have drugs so if ur afriad of pain then u dont have to be, and yeah not much longer, just wish it would go faster, i worked it out last ngiht i have 63 days till im due and 25 days till my bday haha i was bord...

its not only the pain... its the whole procedure!!! It just seems so freaky and creepy to me right now. Pushing it out of there... I don't know. If I want to hold Kiwi, I guess I will have to push through it right?!!? I think I have like 162 days till im due, so only like 100 more that you!

what you mean you dont know if you want to hold kiwi?? haha random but did you know kiwi is a fruit u probly do lol, im kind scared to push myn out as well but i just figer taht if i can i will be on drugs so i wont care lol but im nto sure if i will be able to push myn out might have difficulties, but when i have mine ill make sure i tell u about it haha nare that will scare u even more.

im gonna head off for a bit might go have a nanna nap lol be lazy for once and watch some tv instead of getting a sore arse frm being on baby gaga all night haha tmi

but nice talking to u, if u ever wonna talk to can PM or comment me or what ever and we can talk =]

Oh I definatly want to hold Kiwi... and yes I know its a fruit!! My husband and I have been calling it that until we find out if its a boy or a girl. I think its better then saying baby or it all the time. hahahaa! You will definatly have to tell me how it goes, so I can freak out appropriatly!! hahaha.

Same to you! Thanks for the advice, PM me anytime!

That is how i use to feel in the earlier part of my pregnancy. I was so scared and kept thinking why am i getting excited over the baby when i could lose it. Now i am more relaxed because i truely believe everything will be ok and my little one will be born just fine.

i feel like that sometimes cause i just do not seeing myself having a kid its just something that happens i surpose....