re: Post Partum Depression (PPD)

Quoting it's whatever:“ I am hoping to make this a sticky. But I wanted everyone to have a place to come and discuss anything ... [snip!] ... a bad mom or that you do not love your baby. So please, come here and share and don't fear being judged,because you won't be.”

Um im 18 years old and i am 32 weeks pregnant. I was on lexapro clozedopan trazdone (sleeping) and prozac but i was off of that for a while. But the other ones i have been on for almost a year and when i found out i was pregnant i cant take any of them. At first i was like what am i goin to do??? And then after awhile i was doing good. I am almost done and i dont know if its just the anxiety or what but i am feeling just really weird lately and its defiantley not how i used to feel i just feel out of it and not always there all the time and like i have to fake like i am up and happy when all i want is just to relax and sleep and be kinda by myself for an hour. Is this unusual?? thanks

I feel so helpless right now.. i dont know where else to post this. I gave birth to my daughter 3 weeks ago.. My life just feels like its going down the drain..I hate everything about myself and everyday that i wake up i just feel more and more hopeless.

Camaya is colicy.. sometimes i just stare at her and watch her cry. I feel like such a bad mother... my baby never seems happy, and i think its all my fault. Seeing her always looking so distressed makes me feel like such a worthless person and a bad mother. I hate myself for it. I cant think of one good thing to live for right now. I love my daughter but sometimes i think she'd be better off without me. I just want these feelings to go away. I dont know what else to say, i just hope someone can help me.

Quoting SEXY BREE [shes here!]:“ I feel so helpless right now.. i dont know where else to post this. I gave birth to my daughter 3 weeks ... [snip!] ... be better off without me. I just want these feelings to go away. I dont know what else to say, i just hope someone can help me.”

Go to your dr sweetheart! It's normal to feel the way that you do, and there's nothing wrong with seeking help mama.Your baby girl DOES need you, please don't ever doubt that. Even though it seems like she is always distressed right now.....it won't always be that way love. You're not a bad mother at all! Your dr can help, don't feel like a bad mama for asking for that help......your baby girl loves you!!  

Quoting SEXY BREE [shes here!]:“ I feel so helpless right now.. i dont know where else to post this. I gave birth to my daughter 3 weeks ... [snip!] ... be better off without me. I just want these feelings to go away. I dont know what else to say, i just hope someone can help me.”

I hope that this piece of information helps....
You are def NOT alone! My son was 8 weeks early and is now almost 4 months old.... He has to be the most irritable baby I have ever seen! He cries uncontrolably and not just crying, I mean full fledged SCREAMING! I will try evreything to caln him, but sometimes I just have to become sort of detached and let hin scream for a minute or two and\then deal w/ him. I know how hard it is to be where you are. I am physically and emotionally exhausted, and while I love my son more than anything in this world, he is beyond challenging most days... Dont beat yourself up, trust me you arent alone!! If you ever want to talk feel free to message me, like I said I know exactly where you are. Just make sure you talkto your Dr ASAP about what can be done to help as well!!
Best wishes!

Im 19,A first time mom. My daughter is a month old.. The past month time has gone by really fast, and the days are still just passing me by.
While I was pregnant I was super excited to have my daughter, and I felt as if I loved her. but now that she is here I dont think I love her how a mother should. I dont feel as if she is a nuesence in my life, or that I wish I was doing something else..She is a great baby, she is quiet, super content never cries, eats well, and over all just super happy.So, I don't think I'm stressed.. well, atleast I dont feel like I am. I've talked to my boyfriend about this before, and he's told me that I should see my doctor about this butI'm not sure if this is related to depression. I have been diagnosed with depressiona year and a half ago when 4 of my friends passed away all in a small time frame and I was put on Prozak for 4 months. I was told that depression can come back, but I'm not having the same symptoms as before.
Are these common feelings in first time moms, not being able to love there child??... I'd like some advice if anyone has some to offer me.

Quoting CatLuvr83:“ How'd things go?  ”

I have been really busy but i finally got to call my doctor today and wenesday is the soonest they can get me in ...and my doctor asked me a bunch of questions and it made me fell like a crazy person

Quoting aNNIE22041:“ i am dealing with PPD and just found out a month ago i'm pregnant agian after just haveing a baby whos ... [snip!] ... the zoloft i'm on isnt doing really anything for me idk what to do i have my 1st prenatel visit so i'll talk to my doc on wed”

You CAN get other meds despite the docs and what they say. I waged a war against the OB's and family docs in town and finally found a psychiatrist through a crisis center when I was pregnant that would continue prescribing me my lexapro and ativan.

There are options. Just keep trying to find a different doc.

I feel like Im falling out of love with my baby. I sit there and think that I made a big mistake and that I'm too young to have a baby.

I feel so bad because these thoughts race through my mind but I'm so frustrated. Mia is a great baby but I feel like I lost all my freedom and that I'm stuck.

I love Mia a LOT but everything is so frustrating when the house is a disaster and Mia cries and yeah.

I don't know.

Any thoughts?

Quoting Kimberlea:“ Im 19,A first time mom. My daughter is a month old.. The past month time has gone by really fast, and ... [snip!] ... feelings in first time moms, not being able to love there child??... I'd like some advice if anyone has some to offer me.”

It sounds like PPD to me. I mean I'm not a Dr, but I'm going thru it, and I can say that it's hard to deal with myself and my son some days. Like even last night, we were visting some friends and low and behold my son goes into one of his screaming fits! It's impossible to calm him down and I just feel like I am so lost and alone. It's so hard to love a child when it just seems like you make them miserable.
As for you baby being really good, I'm glad to hear this... But just because you have a good baby doesnt mean you cant have PPD. PPD is just like any other depression, it's caused by a number of factors and hormonal imbalances. Nothing to be ashamed of, just talk to your Dr.

Quoting Twiggygal:“ I feel like Im falling out of love with my baby. I sit there and think that I made a big mistake and ... [snip!] ... a LOT but everything is so frustrating when the house is a disaster and Mia cries and yeah. I don't know. Any thoughts?”

What you are feeling is a classic symptom that a lot of younger moms feel. Dont be ashamed, just make sure that you dont try to lie to yourself and if needed get help from someone whether it be a Dr, friend or family member. I know that my son can be a REAL handful somedays and so what I will do is go visit my parents so it gives me a bit of a break but I can still be there if needed. Also, make arrangements to have someone what your little angel for a couple of hours and go do something for yourself....

Ok this is really hard for me to write. no one but my husband knows how I'm feeling or what I'm going through,but I really need to get it out.
So I am pretty sure that I am going through depression. I cry a lot, I am tired ,have headaches all the time and have seriously considerd suicide. I went shopping with my husband and kids the other day and things just got worse. The kids were misbehaving and the car started acting up and my hubby got mad and was bitching and I just felt like everything was my fault. I wanted to jump out of the car. I like went into this weird frame of mind were I scratched myself and hit myself and it was something I've never done before. I am afraid to go to my Dr . I went through depression once when I miscarried but it wasn't this bad. And I'm Breastfeeding and I am afraid that I will have to stop if I get on medicine. does anyone know if any medicine is safe to take while Bf?
Sorry that this was so long ,but if any of you can help I would be so thankful.

Quoting luv my 4 chix:“ Ok this is really hard for me to write. no one but my husband knows how I'm feeling or what I'm going ... [snip!] ... know if any medicine is safe to take while Bf? Sorry that this was so long ,but if any of you can help I would be so thankful.”

You should see your family doc and make an appointment with a psychiatrist. I know for a fact you can't take benzos while BF but I'm pretty sure you CAN take anti depressants while breast feeding because anti depressants aren't narcotics, while benzos like Ativan are narcotics. (I take ativan for my panic attacks)

There is help. www.postpartum.net

www.postpartumdepression.net

Also here is a help line for PPD 1-800-944-4PPD

You're not alone and I know what it's like to feel so depressed and down too. It's an awful feeling but there is help.

www.healingwell.com is another great website which has message boards and chat rooms for depression and panic disorder and anxiety and plenty of other medical issues.

I've been a member of healingwell for a long time and it's really helped me a lot.

*BIG HUGS*

You are not alone!

for ppl on celexa/lexapro.....

i havn't taken my pills in like a week maybe.. maybe once or twice... and i think its reeking havok on my body now.

im a raging bitch from hell.

and a sappy cunt.

what the hellll.. i wish they had a shot like deop for anti depressants.. once every three mths... i forget everything... esp now being a mom...

i cry because my room is a fucking mess.. but what do i do about it? nothing.. just cry...


dsafjldjsadfkl;fj i was doing so good too for a long time..... now i feel like im starting from square one.. but its differnt this time.. like i have no regrets or thoughts about my son.. i miss him to pieces right now [he's been at gamma's since lastnight]... im just super angry, lacking motovation.. crying over stupid shit.. feeling completely hopeless and empty... and just pretty much hating certian aspects of life... like im not going to get anywhere that i want to be in life... i cant concentrate on shit.. if it seems to be slightly overwhelming.. i avoid it at all costs.. like my finances/bills... i try to avoid that, but we all know avoiding bills makes shit even worse... at work if something requires the slightest bit of brain waves to figure out... i put it aside.. my "put it aside" pile is fucking huge now....

i just wish i didn't have to wait till Aug. to see this councelor.... i was okay w/ it because i was doing so well.... now it seems like an eternity away..

=[[ i hate feeling this way AGAIN.

Quoting Twiggygal:“ You should see your family doc and make an appointment with a psychiatrist. I know for a fact you ... [snip!] ... I've been a member of healingwell for a long time and it's really helped me a lot. *BIG HUGS* You are not alone!”

Thank You.
Problem is I don't have insurance and really can't aford to see a psychiatrist.
But my daughter has a dr. appt soon and I think I'll talk to the dr. then.
I will definatly check out thoes sites though.

Quoting Twiggygal:“ You should see your family doc and make an appointment with a psychiatrist. I know for a fact you ... [snip!] ... I've been a member of healingwell for a long time and it's really helped me a lot. *BIG HUGS* You are not alone!”

Thank You.
Problem is I don't have insurance and really can't aford to see a psychiatrist.
But my daughter has a dr. appt soon and I think I'll talk to the dr. then.
I will definatly check out thoes sites though.