re: Post Partum Depression (PPD)

I am definately dealing with some of this right now. I had my little girl last Wednesday afternoon, we got out of the hospital on Friday and Saturday afternoon my 2 year old was admited to the hospital for her asthma acting up. I was miserable for 3 days while she and my husband were in there. They wouldnt let me keep the baby up there and I was already so emotional the nurses thought it would be better for her if she didnt see me getting upset so much. So I had to come home without my husband and daughter after having already been away from them for 2 days. Everytime I turned around I was crying and miserable. They got home yesterday from the hospital and everything was a little better then but my husband had to go to work today and I wanted to cry when he left the house this morning. I was breastfeeding my one week old when all this started this weekend and because of all the stress and all my baby wont latch on anymore. Which makes me even more depressed cause I really wanted to succeed this time with breastfeeding my child. I am glad I have somebody to come to now and express how I feel, nobody really understood what I was going through this weekend with my family being torn apart again after one night together with the new baby. Thank you very much for posting this.

It's amazing how you can wait 7 years to have another baby, be ecstatic when he's born....then 4 months later, you don't even wanna so much as wake up when he cries. I told my doc, "It's not that I want to throw him out, or hurt him, I just don't want to take care of him. At all." She told me that's normal for PPD sufferers. So, I started the Zoloft last night, and it seems like the one side effect I'm having is a big cut in appetite, which isn't a problem lol....

Quoting Snotty_Bitch:“ It's amazing how you can wait 7 years to have another baby, be ecstatic when he's born....then 4 months ... [snip!] ... the Zoloft last night, and it seems like the one side effect I'm having is a big cut in appetite, which isn't a problem lol....”

thats how i feel most days like its a hassel for me to get up to take care of her and i hate feeling like that

I obviously have no children yet, ten more weeks for that to come. But PPD really scares me! I had a week off from work during christmas, and got so depressed about everthing that i was miserable the whole holiday season.
I dont know what to do when my baby comes, I cant keep my job. Putting him in daycare is not what I want to do, and the cost of that alone wouldnt make me any extra money. My husband works, but I'm just afraid of having too much time with just me and baby, and i'll start thinking too much about things.
I'm rambling. I'm just scared I guess. Ive heard people talk about PPD like its a myth or something. I havent suffered from it, but I know it is not a myth.

Quoting alyssa (blonder313):“ thats how i feel most days like its a hassel for me to get up to take care of her and i hate feeling like that”

I know. It's even worse when you get people saying that you're lazy. Laziness has nothing to do with it. I mean, I don't even like going outside anymore. So I'm hoping that the medication and a change in diet and exercise will help. But seriously, I got sooo pissed off at my MIL last night. She called, and I was telling her about my appointment, and the PPD diagnosis. Her reaction? "No, it isn't PPD, you only get that within a few weeks of the birth!" Um yeah, maybe back 45 years ago that's what people thought, and women sucked it up, or even worse, hurt their kids, or just took off.

Quoting poosk:“ I obviously have no children yet, ten more weeks for that to come. But PPD really scares me! I had a ... [snip!] ... I guess. Ive heard people talk about PPD like its a myth or something. I havent suffered from it, but I know it is not a myth.”

It def. isn't a myth. It's hormonal upset, imbalances, a wide range of things. But it certainly isn't something easily controlled by yourself. I tried. It's like being stuck down in a black well and you have no idea how to get out.

Quoting Snotty_Bitch:“ I know. It's even worse when you get people saying that you're lazy. Laziness has nothing to do with ... [snip!] ... maybe back 45 years ago that's what people thought, and women sucked it up, or even worse, hurt their kids, or just took off.”

yeah my boyfriend tells me that all the time and i get so upset and mad and just scream and cry and try to explain it to him but he doesnt understand because he will never go thru it

his sister who has no children but thinks she knows all even tries to say im lazy. she has no idea i dont even let her in my house because i just cant stand her and she has the nerve to tell his family these things about me

they send me nasty emails when we dont go up to visit them and try to tell me im keeping the baby away from them even tho its usually not me making that desision. they have no idea how much worse that makes me feel, i mean i can only do so much to make these people happy when im not even happy myself

I don't think I have PPD necesarily, but I already had depression since my mom got sick last January, and then died in April.....It did get WORSE after birth, and I started on some antidepressants after, but then I stopped because I'm too snobby I guess. I want to start counselling sometime.

People have had success with counselling?

Quoting Snotty_Bitch:“ It def. isn't a myth. It's hormonal upset, imbalances, a wide range of things. But it certainly isn't ... [snip!] ... easily controlled by yourself. I tried. It's like being stuck down in a black well and you have no idea how to get out.”

See and sometimes I get mad at myself. Like maybe I have control but I'm just lazy.

Quoting brittaney bluegrass.:“ until you get a stomach ulcer.”

Shut it.

Quoting Snotty_Bitch:“ I know. It's even worse when you get people saying that you're lazy. Laziness has nothing to do with ... [snip!] ... maybe back 45 years ago that's what people thought, and women sucked it up, or even worse, hurt their kids, or just took off.”

ugh, thats what my parents say to me every day.
"your so lazy, you need to get out of the house."
but when i try to get out of the house they freak out.
and its not helping me at all.

Quoting Jenna Leigh:“ Shut it.”

its true.

Thank you Natasha Porsche, and Dinca, I appreciate it. I know it isn't good to self medicate like that, but on some days it really gives me energy and makes me happy. I mean happy that makes me wanna be alive and happy that makes me feel worthwhile. You know, the happy that we all need to feel. I have some underlying issues as well that make things even harder and none of them I could have controlled, even though I blame myself.

Quoting brittaney bluegrass.:“ i really think i have ppd, but dshs took me off insurance so i dont know how to get diagnosed. i thought ... [snip!] ... its not something im proud of. im trying to get on medicade again. but until then, im stuck trying to battle this thing myself.”

you tried to kill yourself?

Quoting Jenna Leigh:“ You guys should do what I do, take vicoden or lortab with a glass of wine or more each night. It helps me. Peace”

If you're serious, how the hell do you even take care of your kid? You're basically telling people with PPD to get smurfed up and go to sleep. Which is also called "ignoring your problem."