re: Post Partum Depression (PPD)

I never wanted to have a need to post in here, but I think I might have a case of PPD. At first when my daughter was born, I definately experienced the baby blues, which did go away, and now lately things are just getting terrible. I freak at the slightest thing, like today, I was so mad b/c my fiance said he'll come home and dust the wood, and it will only take him 5 min. I got pissed b/c it takes me 10 min, and I twisted it around and made a huge fight out of it because to me it made me feel like he was trying to say what I do isn't hard. I don't want to do anything anymore, simple chores such as taking clothes to the dry cleaners, just don't get done b/c I have no desire to do it. I don't know if what I"m feeling is just stress, or if I am depressed.

Quoting Cailyn's Mommy:“ I never wanted to have a need to post in here, but I think I might have a case of PPD. At first when ... [snip!] ... just don't get done b/c I have no desire to do it. I don't know if what I"m feeling is just stress, or if I am depressed.”

sounds just like me, but I've also had the feelings of being so overwhelmed w/ my son that I've had moments where I just wanted to anything to stop him from crying. Just make sure if you get to the point of being so overwhelmed esp with your baby that you seek help fast. Because there are women that get PPD so severely that they have hurt their babies without meaning to. Just make sure that you dont deny yourself if you feel like something isnt right.

Quoting bowdoinhambabe:“ sounds just like me, but I've also had the feelings of being so overwhelmed w/ my son that I've had moments ... [snip!] ... have hurt their babies without meaning to. Just make sure that you dont deny yourself if you feel like something isnt right.”

Overwhelmed is definately a good word to describe how I feel. I haven't ever had ANY thoughts of hurting Cailyn, no matter how much she cries. I honestly have the worst feelings towards my fiance, and they are very unjustified. I get so angry with him, and I know it's not his fault, I just have no way to vent what I'm feeling, so I yell at him. I flip out. It's crazy. He thinks it's too late for PPD, but I don't know. I know I definately need a better outlet for my feelings, or else I'll wind up ruining our relationship of almost 10 years!! I would hate to lose that because I'm not handling my stress correctly.

Quoting Cailyn's Mommy:“ Overwhelmed is definately a good word to describe how I feel. I haven't ever had ANY thoughts of hurting ... [snip!] ... wind up ruining our relationship of almost 10 years!! I would hate to lose that because I'm not handling my stress correctly.”

PPD cant come on as much as a year after the birth. You may be lucky enough as\weird as that sounds to be having a form of PPD that isnt taken out towards your baby but rather the next most important person... your fiance. My best advice is totalk to your Dr about it. They should be able to make a good recommendation.

Quoting bowdoinhambabe:“ PPD cant come on as much as a year after the birth. You may be lucky enough as\weird as that sounds to ... [snip!] ... person... your fiance. My best advice is totalk to your Dr about it. They should be able to make a good recommendation.”

Needing to correct my typo..... the first line was supposed to read:'
PPD CAN come on as much as a year after the birth.....

Quoting bowdoinhambabe:“ Needing to correct my typo..... the first line was supposed to read:' PPD CAN come on as much as a year after the birth.....”

That's what I thought. Which dr am I supposed to talk to, my obgyn, or my pcp?

Quoting Cailyn's Mommy:“ That's what I thought. Which dr am I supposed to talk to, my obgyn, or my pcp?”

Your ob/gyn is my recommendation.

I didn't think I would ever post in this thread. But I have not reacted to this birth as well as I thought that I would. Maybe it's because they sent me home from the hospital too early, maybe it's because it is summer and very uncomfortable and hot. I don't know but I have been all but unable to take care of my little girl the way that I want to. My husband and my sister in law and my mother have been invaluable helping me to get through all of this. I'm about to spend 4 more days at my mother's house to have a little help from her and give my husband some time to rest during his heavy part of the work week (Sunday through Wednesday)

It's only been 8 days since she has been born and I went home when she was two days old. Ever since then I've been crying almost all day and passing off all the tasks but breastfeeding on to someone else. And even the breastfeeding isn't going very well, we have had to resort to bottles more times than not and Idon't want her toget accustomed to that. I do spend the nights up with her trading off with my husband but I don't think I'm bonding as well with her as I should be. It costs so much work even to talk to her, to sing to her. It still does not feel real.

I don't know how many days I have to wait feeling like this before it passes or I have to admit that I have some kind of bigger problem. I don't ever want to be on medication again for depression, the last time I was it destroyed a whole lot of the things that I was proud of. I've been really good at looking at life optimistically but lately all of that has seemed to just fall down around me in spite of having a perfect, wonderful, beautiful blessing of a baby.

I have never felt so incapable and vulnerable before in my life. And right now especially when I have to be capable more than ever it is not really fair. It's only been about one week, and I don't know if that qualifies for anything or if tomorrow I will magically feel better.

My husband is so happy, it is not fair to him at all that he has to take care of not one but two babies.

Quoting CatLuvr83:“ Your ob/gyn is my recommendation.”

She's is right. My midwife was the one that prescribed my medication for me.

Quoting meridian:“ I didn't think I would ever post in this thread. But I have not reacted to this birth as well as I thought ... [snip!] ... feel better. My husband is so happy, it is not fair to him at all that he has to take care of not one but two babies.”

Sounds a lot like you are battling a case of PPD. I never realized just how COMMON PPD is until I started researching it myself. It just seems like something that never happens or at the very least shouldnt be happening to you, but be honest to yourself and allow yourself to admit when something isnt right. That's the only thing that has kept me going thru all of the stressful times when I've felt like all I wanted to do was bawl my eye out or shove the pacifier down my sons throat when he just wouldnt stop crying after doing everything possible for him. I'll admit that it's taken me months to admit openly to anyone that I've had moments where I just want to do anything to hush my son up. It scared me to think I could possibly have these thought about the one person (besides my husband) that I would give my life for. My son was my world before he was even born and I couldnt understand why on Earth I was having these flashing moments of doing harm.... It wasnt until I finally became honest with myself that I realized how much I really needed to get help. So please dont be afraid to ask for help when you need it.

I didn't read all of the post in this sticky, but I feel the same as alot of the women. I never realized, until babygaga, how serious, and common, ppd is. I felt like I was bonding with Lennon Ruth, but now that I'm on Zoloft, I have created, what I feel like, is a motherly bond. I really think that if I hadn't been diagnosed with ppd as quickly as I was, things would've just progressed to me not having the strength to tell anyone how I felt. I was digging myself into a hole, with no one to help me, because I had pushed them all away. Don't let it get that far, if you're even thinking you feel the slightest bit different, TELL SOMEONE!

Quoting meridian:“ I didn't think I would ever post in this thread. But I have not reacted to this birth as well as I thought ... [snip!] ... feel better. My husband is so happy, it is not fair to him at all that he has to take care of not one but two babies.”

Baby blues are considered "typical" and last about 2 weeks. PPD is diagnosed when the baby blue feelings last 3-4 weeks or more. And PPD can happen anytime b't delivery up to 2 YEARS afterwards!

If you reach the 2 week mark and still feel crappy, that is the time to seek medical help. I wish you the best of luck in the meantime!

Quoting CatLuvr83:“ Baby blues are considered "typical" and last about 2 weeks. PPD is diagnosed when the baby blue feelings ... [snip!] ... the 2 week mark and still feel crappy, that is the time to seek medical help. I wish you the best of luck in the meantime!”

Thanks! I have spent the last couple of days with my mother and all her support (and cooking and central air conditioning) is helping a lot. Also sleeping when the baby is sleeping is good even when she is up all night. Today was much better than yesterday. I know it all passes, it is just hard to see when you are right in the middle of it.

Quoting meridian:“ Thanks! I have spent the last couple of days with my mother and all her support (and cooking and central ... [snip!] ... Today was much better than yesterday. I know it all passes, it is just hard to see when you are right in the middle of it.”

So true. I'm glad to hear you are doing better!

I posted on this topic a while back and have felt better since then so im thinking what i had was baby blues alone. But the past couple days have been weird. I am having one issue, ive considerably lost my milk supply and am feeling so guilty about it. After the mastitis and thrush I didnt nurse for three days and my supply went way low. Now that I watch my baby have constipation, gas and crankiness because of the formula I feel crappy, I feel so guilty and it makes me cry. Not sure if this is natural or if PPD may be butting its ugly head in. I feel so crappy about the breastfeeding and praying for a miracle!