re: Post Partum Depression (PPD)

<blockquote><b>Quoting my awesome boys:</b>" I know what you mean about just getting so angry and irritable. I hope your doing better now."</blockquote>



I'm doing a lot better now. Me and DD have bonded a lot

Who do I need to call about my PPD? My OB/GYN or a regular Doctor?

I'm 8 weeks pp. I've already been to my 6 week check up, and I was too shy to say anything, like an idiot. But I'm honestly tired of feeling like this. I just want to feel like myself again..

I was diagnosed with ppd when my second child( little girl) was only 2 1/2 months old, I was scared lonely didn't have energy for anything even my 3 yo and I would cry ALL the time and blame myself for things that would go wrong in my day to day life , just so happen my insurance company calls me one day out of the blue to do what they call a post partum health survey, I failed miserably, I was then referred to quinco, I sat my husband down and explained what was going on ad all he could do was laugh and tell me nothing was wrong with me I was only going to counseling to get drugs, that hurt really bad, I went in for counseling and realized just how bad my depression was and I was scared and nervous for my children bc I knew i wasn't myself and I didn't want to do anything to Hurt them, I went in for 2 sessions and the got medication started( celexa) after I started taking it and got used to it, a couple weeks went by I started feeling good again, then my husband threatens to shoot himself because we got into a fight and instead of yelling at him I was a bigger person and walked off and wouldn't talk, I called my mom to come get the kids so they would not have to hear us arguing , she pulls up and he comes out of the house with a gun and says if u leave with my kids I'll shoot myself, that made things worse!! After we got over that incident we ended up having to go help his mom out of state with his dad who had stage 4 aggressive brain cancer, I forgot my meds at home and didn't realize it until we got all the way to his parents house 5 hours away!! So here it's is almost 6 months later and I can still feel that I'm not myself at all, Ive been off my meds now for 6 months, I didn't even take a whole months supply , and I'm scared of my husbands temper towards me and our 3 year old and I just don't know what else to do, I'm going back to counseling in April but he refuses to go!!!

Sorry so long just had to get tht off my chest!!

<blockquote><b>Quoting k α y l α:</b>" Who do I need to call about my PPD? My OB/GYN or a regular Doctor? I'm 8 weeks pp. I've already been ... [snip!] ... too shy to say anything, like an idiot. But I'm honestly tired of feeling like this. I just want to feel like myself again.."</blockquote>




You can say something to either one . The OB or regular doc, they will probably refer you to a mental health center so u can talk about your feeling with a counselor.

Haven't been wanting to admit this but my son is ten months old, and it's been going on for about a month or so now... I have depression and I'm on meds but for a month or so I have been having these racing thoughts about my baby calling him stupid in my head, referring to him in my head as dumb or retarded and stuff like that... I feel like I'm going crazy honestly... And I know I don't feel bonded to him like I should, but I love him more than anything in this world... Someone please tell me what's going on with me... I hate thinking that stuff and I hate not feeling super close to him like I know I should be...

I'm 15 weeks PP today. I think I'm battling ppd but I don't know. I just feel so alone. It feels like no one cares about me anymore. I am home all day by myself. Just me & my daughter. Her dad works an hour away from here and gets up at 5 to go to work and doesn't get home until nearly 5 again (unless he works overtime in which case its closer to 7 or later before he gets home). I can't sleep and when I do it feels like I've only slept 10 minutes when it's been 4 hours. I don't feel like eating but I'm still gaining weight (and I'm extremely overweight as it is and I just feel disgusting looking at my body now). I'm always so tired but can't sleep when my daughter sleeps like people tell you to do. I get so upset because I want to clean my house but I can't get enough energy to do hardly anything at all. I rarely feel happy anymore. I put on fake smiles and act like nothing is wrong so no one knows what's really going on with me. I'm so ashamed of how I feel I told my doctor 3 times that I was fine because I don't want everyone knowing what I'm going through. Sometimes I sit here and think about how everyone would manage if I wasn't here. Not as in killing myself but as in just leaving. But I could never leave my baby. What gets me through all this is my daughters smiling face. So I'm happy that I'm not thinking anything bad about her. I tried talking to my husband about it and all he said was "I don't know what's so bad about your life that makes you feel this way". So I have no one to talk to now. I feel a little better getting all of this off my chest. If I keep it in my mind much longer I might go crazy.

I have depression as it is and it's treating me bad at the moment, not looking forward to the possibility of a major flare up after bub is born. I plan on going back on my anti-depressants as soon as possible.