16, 38 weeks and not wishing my baby out.

I don't know why, but I seem to be feeling a twisted version of how most women feel right now. I'm due Febuary 15th, and my Doctor has said she'll perform a membrane sweep on me BEFORE I'm 40 weeks.
I understand the Doctors concern, and her want to be sure delivery comes and goes well and hopefully comes before I have to be induced. But surely it's silly for her to do a membrane sweep before I'm even to my due date, considering I'm still to term for another two weeks or so after that.
I feel I don't want her to do this, and I'd rather talk about why she wants to do it more with her and maybe schedule it for a later date. My doctors have been up, down and all around. My main doctor I saw twice before she was taken ill, then I saw a different doctor once, now I'm seeing this french doctor who doesn't make alot of sense alot of the time. As for a midwife, well, I haven't seen one of them since I was around 20 or so weeks. I get bloods and blood pressure checked by the sister midwife at the hospital when I go to see the doctor, but it's hardly the same thing. The reason for this being my first midwife resigned very early in my pregnancy.
Anyway, I feel excited about the birth, and scared of the labour, and I'm feeling good about coping with my Daughter once she's born. However, I don't feel like I want her out now now now like most women at this stage do. I don't know if it's because some part of me is aprehensive about it or if it's just because I feel okay in myself as a heavily pregnant woman. But something tells me it's not quite right.
Also, I'm EXTREMELY aprehensive about breast feeding, mainly because I think people think I might be whipping my breasts out all over the shop for all to see while breast feeding. That is something I would never EVER do, and I just don't want to feel like I'm gonna be forced into doing things like that. I'd rather use a family room or a toilet, or just only breast feed in my own home and nowhere else. I really need to know how easy it is to adjust to the feeling of it, and the sheer amount of embaressment in entails for me is crippling. I almost think I might have to just say I can't do it.

As far as having your membrane swept goes, you don't have to do it. A lot of the time things are presented to pregnant women as if they have no choice, and it
s simply not the case.

It's your body and your baby - if you don't want your membranes swept for the reasons you stated, that's perfectly fine. There's absolutely no reason for them to be doing so at such an early stage.

The same thing goes for induction. I would strongly suggest you do your research on what the complications of induction can be, and not let your medical professional try to talk you into it unless it's necessary for medical reasons - I certainly wouldn't be going ahead with it just because your doctor thinks it's time for the baby to come. Your baby will know when it's ready - have you ever heard of a baby that never came out?!

As for breastfeeding, I'd strongly suggest you give it a try. My sister was only 16 when she had her baby and she felt very much the way you did. She was very apprehensive about being pressured into breastfeeding in front of people.

She breastfed anyway, simply because she knew what the benefits were and decided it was what she wanted for her baby. If she was at a friend's house or something, she'd politely ask if she could sit in another room to feed the baby - let me tell you, it's highly unlikely people will say no. She breastfed her baby fro 6months or so, and never exposed her breasts to anyone. I think sometimes she pumped milk to feed to baby if she was going somewhere where she knew there were no private facilities available.

Good luck with everything