I lost my angel

My angel has gone, I've lost my tiny unborn baby forever. I feel so empty and low but i'll be ok. I'm just so scared it will happen again. I'll explain from the beginning. At 5 weeks I started bleeding I had a scan and we thought i'd lost my little one however the doctors said to give my unborn baby a chance and to go back for another scan at 6 weeks so i did and they found a heartbeat. So I was booked in for another scan at 8 weeks to check how my little buba was and there my tiny angel was wriggling around with a good strong heartbeat I was so happy. They said everything looked to be ok and to arrange my booking appointment with my midwife and to have another scan at 12 weeks. Everything was fineI had no more bleeding or anything although I have been ill i felt my baby was ok. So we went at 12 weeks and they told us my little one had no heartbeat and had'nt grown since my last scan. I didn't believe my baby was dead I couldn't.
We waited until boxing day and i had to go into hospital and take a tablet and then return on friday (48hrs later). On Friday they gave me tablets put up into my cervix it took about 3 hrs before I started getting pains and the gave me another 2 tablets to take orally just as my pains started. I started passing really large blood cloths and bleeding really heavy the pain did get quite bad, really different pains to labour though. When I passed my baby I tried not to look but I couldn't not and I can't get it out of my head it was so big for 8 weeks. I know I was really early in pregnancy but it still hurts so much. I'm sorry if I have upset anyone by typing this I just need to talk. Me and my partner have nearly split up over this but I think we're ok now. I just really need someone to talk to please if anyone who has been through this can talk about it message me, thankyou for taking the time to read this and thankyou if you prayed for my baby before my baby did fight but my angel wasn't strong enough

i'm really sorry for your loss.

Quoting Jaysmommy:“ My angel has gone, I've lost my tiny unborn baby forever. I feel so empty and low but i'll be ok. I'm ... [snip!] ... taking the time to read this and thankyou if you prayed for my baby before my baby did fight but my angel wasn't strong enough”

Oh, hon, I'm so sorry. I've gone through it, too. I had to have a DNC (D&C?) around the 8 week mark years ago (2005) and it was absolutely devastating. While I know that nothing I can tell you will fix this, someone told me that it just means your little one wasen't ready to come into this world. And although that didn't solve things, it gave me some peace. The best thing is to just give yourself time. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Just take your time and do things are your own pace. I wish you luck with this and if you need anyone to talk to, please feel free to P.M. me. I'm sorry, and you're all in my prayers.

Quoting Jaysmommy:“ My angel has gone, I've lost my tiny unborn baby forever. I feel so empty and low but i'll be ok. I'm ... [snip!] ... taking the time to read this and thankyou if you prayed for my baby before my baby did fight but my angel wasn't strong enough”

I know this doesn't help as much as I wish it did, but the way I feel is that God took your dear little angel because he was too perfect for the cruelty of this world & you will see him again.That thought was the only thing that kept me going when I lost my son at 24 weeks.

I wish you all the best.

I'm sorry to hear that

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I am sorry for your loss... God took him for the better.. I guess he had a nother thought in mind for the baby and for you.

I'm soo sorry that you had to go through this, but your little one has all of our angels up there to play with, so he's not alone. Feel free to message me if you would like someone to talk to. I recently lost my son at 21weeks, and what I can tell you, is to let yourself grieve...that's when I started to feel better. I still cry everyday for him, and it's still pretty hard, but I now feel a certain peace inside. I know others have said it, but I like to think ours were taken because they really were too beautiful for this earth and God decided to keep them to show everyone in heaven His beautiful work. I'm not sure if it's true, but I like to think it is. I will not only be praying for you, but for your family to be understanding to how you feel also. Take care sweetie.

I am sorry for your loss.

It's very painful, nothing but time can heal and even then sometimes it's hard. Having had 3 miscarriages, one being the same situation as yours, I can honestly put my 'arm' around you and say I understand and I truely am sorry for you. x

im so sorry for your loss hun

I am very sorry for your loss.

im so sorry for your loss

im sooo sorry for ur loss!!