So scared to be home...

My daughter is one week old and I am falling appart. I keep thinking she is going to die. I know it sounds so horrible, but I can't help it. I worry so much I can't eat! At night I get so, so scared that she is going to suffocate or stop breathing in her crib. I have been crying so much because I am so scared. My husband is ready to kill me. We have been home for three days and all I want to do is go back to the hopital where they can help me make sure nothing is wrong.

Does anyone else feel like this?

Quoting JenniC:“ My daughter is one week old and I am falling appart. I keep thinking she is going to die. I know it sounds ... [snip!] ... I want to do is go back to the hopital where they can help me make sure nothing is wrong. Does anyone else feel like this?”

Oh hunnie... I had some of this. Mostly I just felt so unprepared. And like I was doing everything all wrong, and was a bad mom. It is normal to a degree, but if it's so severe that it's making it hard to do stuff then I would recommend calling a Dr because it could be some ppd. As far as reassuring yourself she's ok, you could cosleep w her so that you know she's going to be safe with you, or get a really good baby monitor so you can hear her at night. They make sids monitors that beep and are obnoxious if they stop breathing for any reason too. Or even try a bassinet next to your bed and let her room in with you.
It's all going to be ok! And I think that as soon as you get past the first few days and get some rest you'll probably feel better. I luckily live w my mum temporarily, but the first few nights I was home with Sydney I couldn't stop crying!
You have to remember too that your body is going through an intensive repair stage from having her, and that your hormones are about twice as out of whack as they have been during your entire pregnancy.. Ya know the ones you've been blaming your mood swings on for the last 9 months? lol.. Now multiply those mood swings by about a hundred and add sleep deprivation to the mix.. That's a huge part of the reason you feel like this...
Well I'm sending e-hugs your way!
Mel
*edited* for my bad spelling.. gimme a break it's 3:30 am  

I think pretty much everybody felt or feels like that. It's such a dramatic change.
I got to the point where I had to put the baby down and walk away because I thought I would hurt her for not crying. It even took me awhile to have that "connection". Just know that you are normal and I agree with Sydney's Momma, if you are feeling like you can't cope, call your doctor. For you and your husband actually,

I wish you the best and congratulations!!!