Anyone around?

I could really really really use someone to talk to....

whats goin on? im due around you

My husband just told me he wanted a seperation...... And honestly, we've both been thinking about it for a while.... But that doesn't make it hurt any less, or make it any less scary as I'M the one having to move..... and I'm being forced to take the crappy car that is about ready to break down....

Oh sweetie! Why do you have to move out? Shouldn't HE move out, your pregnant! I think I'm going to have to come over and hurt him! 

Cause its our roommates house and she'd rather have him here than me because he's not pregnant and she just miscarried and has been giving me the cold shoulder since it happened and she's constantly trying to usurp his time from me and is succeeding......... and I'm rambling and I can't stop crying and I feel horrible and just wish I could curl up in a hole somewhere if it weren't for baby Dameon.... He's the only thing I've done right in this whole marriage and even part of me is wishing right now we'd waited so he wouldn't have to go through this

oh, im sorry.. i dont even know what to say, i couldnt imagine my husband and i splitting right now, i feel like i need someone around more than ever. is there any way you guys would try counseling? my husband and i went before we got married, at first i thought it was stupid but by the end i felt so much closer. try not to stress it to much.. your baby boy needs you!  

We've tried... and it hasn't worked..... and I don't know what to do honestly.... a friend of mine offered me a place to stay if I needed it a couple weeks ago when things were rocky, and she said anytime I need it to come... but I don't wanna impose she has family coming for christmas and I just can't do that!

i would go, your friend obviusly thinks of you as family or she wouldnt be so willing to give you a place to crash when things are rocky

But she's also living with her Fiance, and she's been so stressed out.... She's so much like a mom to me (She's about my mom's age, but we really connected and have known each other almost since I started working where I work now which was in April)..... I just emailed her and told her pretty much what's going on... I hope she calls me....

i hope that she does too, good luck to you, i hope all works out

Thank you.... gods I feel like I should flag myself as drama..... I hate coming on here after me and Duane have a fight.... but I don't know where else to turn... and with this? Yeah, I really REALLY didn't know where else to turn!

Oh my gosh, I am SO SO sorry honey. I hope your friend calls you soon. You may feel like you're imposing with the holidays being here and all but you sound like family to her..... and family takes care of family..... you're in my prayers.

awww sweetie I am so sorry for what is going on right now. I cant belive he would want to seperate now when he should be your biggest support. Im glad your friend offered so you know you are not alone. Do you have family at all where you live? Well be strong hun and things will work out. I will keep you in my prayers and if you need us we are here for you.

I'm so sorry to hear your going through such a tough time right now hun..........I'd offer you a place to stay, but I'm in Canada - so it'd be a little far!!!

you take care of yourself and that beautiful baby inside of you, we are all here for you no matter what!!

((HUGS))

Well, ladies, I figured I'd update you all. Soon after my last post, my best friend for the past 10 1/2 years got online. She's also going to be Dameon's godmother. She offered me a place, I talked to Duane, and we agreed that I'd get a bus ticket to my friend Krys's in Williamsburg for a vacation... It will be a much needed vacation for both of us. So he dropped me off at the bus station about 9am.... We got my ticket, went to breakfast, then back to the station, and he and I spent a few minutes alone together, with both of us in tears. He then left to go get his paycheck and pay bills, though he offered to stay longer, we both agreed a quick break would heal faster....

But I did have a message from him when I got to my friend's house, on myspace. It had me in tears.... *sigh* Here it is

Figured I'd message you on here. I hope that you have fun. I went to my moms today and she was in tears. She is scared that you are going to stay up there and she will never get to see her grandson. I told her that everything will be ok. I can't sleep. I have cried all day. Shit, I'm crying right now. I did eat. I am screwed though. I don't have enough money to cover all our bills and still have enough for gas and food. This is going to be hell. Well I'm out for now. Loves ya Duane.

I can only hope this will work.... I love him with all my heart, save the piece that is reserved for our little Dameon. We agreed the best thing to do would be to seperate now, before Dameon is here to deal with it. Pray for me that things work out....